Out with Jake (again).
So Matt cancelled... so I called Jake and asked him to hang out. And of course being the gentleman he is, he did not decline.
People are going to start talking - this is the third night in a row that we've been together. I don't know what to think...
I guess people don't need to know about it...
But I will say it was amazingly fun.
I don't understand it myself, I don't think I want to understand it... but he and I walked from Broadbeach to Surfers paradise via the beach. It was sooo much fun. Took forever to get there though.
When we got there I got a PepsiMax and we shared it, and then we just sat at the beach for about two hours. It got really cold so we cuddled. And yeah... We talked about random things again. Songs and movies and books and stars and galaxies and universes and people trying to kill us and this and that and... I don't know what to think about it, once again.....
Then my mum called and yelled at me because it was already really really late and I was meant to be home hours ago. So we started heading back. We held hands for a bit - I don't know what to think of that either.
When I dropped him off I told him I wanted to hang out tomorrow as well. I don't know if that was a good idea. I feel like a bit of a tool already... well not really... maybe a little. I'm blabbering about nothing now and I don't like it.
I don't know anything anymore.
I've officially eaten nothing since Wednesday. Yes to me. I need this pain in my stomach... I guess Ryan was right. You don't feel alive unless you have pain... in a way it is right to me anyways.
People are going to start talking - this is the third night in a row that we've been together. I don't know what to think...
I guess people don't need to know about it...
But I will say it was amazingly fun.
I don't understand it myself, I don't think I want to understand it... but he and I walked from Broadbeach to Surfers paradise via the beach. It was sooo much fun. Took forever to get there though.
When we got there I got a PepsiMax and we shared it, and then we just sat at the beach for about two hours. It got really cold so we cuddled. And yeah... We talked about random things again. Songs and movies and books and stars and galaxies and universes and people trying to kill us and this and that and... I don't know what to think about it, once again.....
Then my mum called and yelled at me because it was already really really late and I was meant to be home hours ago. So we started heading back. We held hands for a bit - I don't know what to think of that either.
When I dropped him off I told him I wanted to hang out tomorrow as well. I don't know if that was a good idea. I feel like a bit of a tool already... well not really... maybe a little. I'm blabbering about nothing now and I don't like it.
I don't know anything anymore.
I've officially eaten nothing since Wednesday. Yes to me. I need this pain in my stomach... I guess Ryan was right. You don't feel alive unless you have pain... in a way it is right to me anyways.