Why?
I just don't understand.
We use to be so close.
Talk every day.
Go every where together.
We use to be best friends.
But now.
Now we have no relationship at all.
You stay in your room.
I stay in mine.
What happened to us?
What happened to YOU?
I understand you have depression.
But so do I.
She thinks I don't love her.
But I know she doesn't care too much about me.
The other day I desperately asked you to take me and Andrea somewhere.
ANYWHERE.
We didn't have to spend money.
We could just get out of the house.
Look.
Spend time together?
But you flat out said 'No'.
You said it was because you weren't going out that day.
But the real answer was, you just wanted to stay in bed.
I mean, we all have those days.
A lazy day or two, maybe once a month, once a week?
But with you, it's every damn day.
Do you understand how much it kills me?
How much I desperately want you to say something meaningful to me.
That doesn't include talking about celebrities.
Just ask me how my day was.
Ask me where I want to go to college..
Support me with what I want to do with my life.
You spend more time with your dog than you do with your own daughter.
I know that I should probably come into your room more often.
Say hi or something little like that.
But why am I the only one making the effort?
Why don't you want to try anymore?
Not even for me.
This is to you, mom.
These tears are for you.
i just wish I could say all these words to you.
I do love you...
But not the way you've become.
We use to be so close.
Talk every day.
Go every where together.
We use to be best friends.
But now.
Now we have no relationship at all.
You stay in your room.
I stay in mine.
What happened to us?
What happened to YOU?
I understand you have depression.
But so do I.
She thinks I don't love her.
But I know she doesn't care too much about me.
The other day I desperately asked you to take me and Andrea somewhere.
ANYWHERE.
We didn't have to spend money.
We could just get out of the house.
Look.
Spend time together?
But you flat out said 'No'.
You said it was because you weren't going out that day.
But the real answer was, you just wanted to stay in bed.
I mean, we all have those days.
A lazy day or two, maybe once a month, once a week?
But with you, it's every damn day.
Do you understand how much it kills me?
How much I desperately want you to say something meaningful to me.
That doesn't include talking about celebrities.
Just ask me how my day was.
Ask me where I want to go to college..
Support me with what I want to do with my life.
You spend more time with your dog than you do with your own daughter.
I know that I should probably come into your room more often.
Say hi or something little like that.
But why am I the only one making the effort?
Why don't you want to try anymore?
Not even for me.
This is to you, mom.
These tears are for you.
i just wish I could say all these words to you.
I do love you...
But not the way you've become.