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i'm in a state. i am sent by a boy who lives too far away, that i have met once after a show in my basement. we are inseperable-even though he is in england, and i in omaha. soon. january promises of hugs and weeks spent.
i leave for chicago very soon. i have this need to help people. to spend myself. give away pieces to feed them, just hold on a little longer. i want to save everyone. but i know in doing so, i will only lose myself. who am i to think that i can plant seeds? i can water them with my tears. nurture them with a kiss. speak to them in whispers.
ahhh. so lonely.
i leave for chicago very soon. i have this need to help people. to spend myself. give away pieces to feed them, just hold on a little longer. i want to save everyone. but i know in doing so, i will only lose myself. who am i to think that i can plant seeds? i can water them with my tears. nurture them with a kiss. speak to them in whispers.
ahhh. so lonely.