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Im exhausted. My body aches. I am miserable. My entire day is spent in class and at home studying. I wake up at 5am and go to bed around 11 or 12 if I'm lucky. I spend so much time sitting down (while studying) that I get dizzy and light-headed when i have to stand for more than a few minutes at a time. I have a chronic neck and back ache that no amount of advil can help and a headache that comes around 2pm every single day that makes me want to cry and vomit at the same time. Showering is a chore because it seems to use up too much energy... but dont worry.. I shower daily despite the deficit. I guess I'm just hoping that all of this torture will be worth it in the end. otherwise, what kind of life is this?
the odd part about all of this misery is that i still enjoy studying medicine. i love learning about how the body works and the different pathological states in relation. i usually dont get too too excited about things but today everything we reviewed just seemed to make instant sense. My hippocampus was functioning in overdrive or as some might say, the light bulb in my brain was lit all day long.
id have to say that my favorite time of the day is the early mornings. I wake up before the alarm at around 5am when it is still completely dark outside and lay in my warm bed all cuddled up for about half an hour. I mostly think and plan and reassure myself that i only have a few more months of this left... but sometimes i just listen to the wind and the rustling of the palm trees. Its the only time I am completely alone and my thoughts are mine and uninterrupted. everyone needs time to themselves - im just the weirdo that chooses to wake up super-early to have mine.
Alright, its time for bed for me!
the odd part about all of this misery is that i still enjoy studying medicine. i love learning about how the body works and the different pathological states in relation. i usually dont get too too excited about things but today everything we reviewed just seemed to make instant sense. My hippocampus was functioning in overdrive or as some might say, the light bulb in my brain was lit all day long.
id have to say that my favorite time of the day is the early mornings. I wake up before the alarm at around 5am when it is still completely dark outside and lay in my warm bed all cuddled up for about half an hour. I mostly think and plan and reassure myself that i only have a few more months of this left... but sometimes i just listen to the wind and the rustling of the palm trees. Its the only time I am completely alone and my thoughts are mine and uninterrupted. everyone needs time to themselves - im just the weirdo that chooses to wake up super-early to have mine.
Alright, its time for bed for me!