Ever elusive happiness
It has struck me the past few days that I've been pretty happy and contented recently. Summer holidays has been really fulfilling and good. All the village air,kids, caves, rivers, shops, beaches, friends have done me some good! Maybe that's just what happiness is. Occassional bursts of laughter, and a constant peaceful calm, no worries and grievances. (Although calling up the driving instructor constantly nags at me and makes me clam up with fear.) I guess for me, as long as there are no gaps of emptiness I'll be happy, like every aspect of my life is filled with something, even if that something may sometimes be sadness? i think the only thing I've really neglected this holidays, and I really regret, is my family. Think I've not really been around for more than a year and I really don't know how to make it up to them. They are constantly on my mind but I can't put these thoughts into action. Like I wanna communicate more with my grandparents but I just can't. And it;s a real pity coz there's no communication barrier like many I know. And I'm constantly so angsty when i'm home. Ok this will change. Life recently has taught me so much. I'm gonna make the most of the last few precious days of vacation and then I'm really going to realign my priorities for school.