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[anamacha]

NB: I am going dark shortly after this. Though I am not using the userpictures or made posts about it, I feel strongly enough about censorship to at least pay lip service to tomorrow's Content Strike.

ed using In response to a recent ask/tell poll, the lovely ladytairngire asks:

A) Do you subscribe to the idea that illness and injuries are more than just

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[anamacha]

they're mostly rhetorical, yes, because you don't know much about my particular situation. But if you have any clues/answer/insight/whatever then they're much appreciated!

Anyway. Part of my ... thing is that I was raised in the ZCatholic church, where Destiny was a bearded old man on a throne, and individuals were catapulted into guilt and not encouraged to forge their own way. "Let go and let god," they'd say, and that never made sense to me as I was never able to conjure up the magical quality that everyone else had called 'faith.'

So these whispers that you talk of -- I was never encouraged to listen for them. I'm trying to do it now, but through the lens of poor self-esteem and self-doubt, I'm never sure I'm doing it right.

Oh, and there was my accident, too, which happened when I was 15. Any nascent destiny that might have been manifesting was transformed into the sole mandate to "SURVIVE."

My parents, understandably, became rather overprotective and smothering, so right when I graduated high school I shot out from under them like Taco Bell hot sauce from a stomped-on packet. No guidance was given me (not that I understood, anyway), nothing was done to form or shape me. It was all me, and I had nmot a clue on how to proceed.

So I didn't, and I let the fear take over.

And that's the way it is right now. I'm trying to step out, as it's high time I did so. I'm going back to school in the Fall, I'm working on some self-discovery that I alluded to earlier and I'll talk more about later.

So. How do you look for otherworldly involvement? And where do you see it?

Yes, I love this stuff, regardless of what it's shared over. Can't you tell? :)

[ladytairngire]

I guess the easiest way to answer that is to say I watch for the sisters: Serendipty and Coincidence. When they appear, I tend to view it as intentional. Like, there's a reason I should be thinking about x and a story about x appears on the tv and a song about x on the radio and a book about x falls off the shelf...

A neat incident that happened just the other day: I prayed to a Goddess for strength and guidance. I offered her a cup of tea (as i am wont to do). It was Yogi tea, the kind with cutesy messages typed on the label, inside the wrapper... guess what? The message was about inner strength.

It's a little thing, but definitive proof to me that there are extraoridnary forces at work.

[anamacha]

ah, gotcha. And I do the same sort of thing; I observe the same sort of thing. I know there's SOME thing there to attribute it to, I just don't know what it is.