trileptal notes 001
This Trileptal shit is really kicking my ass. My neurologist said -- perhaps very wisely, perhaps not -- that he wanted me to start out slow, so I've been taking 150mg at night alone. I don't know what a "normal" or therapeutic dose is.
The first day I took it my moods and emotions were very rolloercoastery, very labile. The second wasn't much better. The third I had sort of a baseline moderate depression, and from time to time my mood would take a real nosedive. And if I was unstable before, now ... shit. Now my mood is liable to change with the wind.
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Yesterday I was moderately depressed all day. Today it was the hardest thing to do to drag my ass out of bed, I am so depressed. It's been five days that I've been on the low low dosage, so today I took another 150mg in the morning.
I am struggling with this. Not trying to get sympathy or net.hugs or anything like that -- but I am really struggling.
Things that normally made me happy now make me want to cry. Aren't the pills supposed to make this better? Not worse?
And now I have to go to work. At least this is my "friday."
The first day I took it my moods and emotions were very rolloercoastery, very labile. The second wasn't much better. The third I had sort of a baseline moderate depression, and from time to time my mood would take a real nosedive. And if I was unstable before, now ... shit. Now my mood is liable to change with the wind.
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Yesterday I was moderately depressed all day. Today it was the hardest thing to do to drag my ass out of bed, I am so depressed. It's been five days that I've been on the low low dosage, so today I took another 150mg in the morning.
I am struggling with this. Not trying to get sympathy or net.hugs or anything like that -- but I am really struggling.
Things that normally made me happy now make me want to cry. Aren't the pills supposed to make this better? Not worse?
And now I have to go to work. At least this is my "friday."