selling my soul
I've done it.
I set up my new computer today. I'm using it to write this -- as I install something in the background. So far ... I almost hate to say it, but I'm really pretty happy with it so far. The only thing I don't like about it is that it's not a Mac. And that can't be helped; I can't afford a Mac anyway. See previous entry for things on that.
I seem to not want myself to like it, or to be happy with it. See, I seem to have this thing about being happy -- about not letting myself be happy. It's nonsense, I know. This is something I've struggled with for quite some time. And I reckon it's high time I let myself be happy. It is, after all, a conscious decision ... I just don't always feel up to making the 'right' choice.
Not sure I'm done yet, but I'm not sure I can think of anything else to say right at the moment.
I set up my new computer today. I'm using it to write this -- as I install something in the background. So far ... I almost hate to say it, but I'm really pretty happy with it so far. The only thing I don't like about it is that it's not a Mac. And that can't be helped; I can't afford a Mac anyway. See previous entry for things on that.
I seem to not want myself to like it, or to be happy with it. See, I seem to have this thing about being happy -- about not letting myself be happy. It's nonsense, I know. This is something I've struggled with for quite some time. And I reckon it's high time I let myself be happy. It is, after all, a conscious decision ... I just don't always feel up to making the 'right' choice.
Not sure I'm done yet, but I'm not sure I can think of anything else to say right at the moment.