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so i was thinking of how yesterday's journal reminds me of the 'forum' in penthouse magazine. i'm telling stories and replacing names so that in the unlikely event someone reads this, they won't really know who i'm talking about. although anyone who actually knows me in real life would know who i'm talking about. yay for anonymity.
it also reminds me of a conversation i had with rory last night. he was asking if he'd told me about this ideas for a porn drinking game. when he said that, i immediately thought "shots for money shots" which is what he typed in a few seconds later while explaining it to me. he seemed entertained by the fact that that phrase was the first thing that i'd think of. i thought it seemed pretty obvious, yet highly entertaining.
hung out with rory and another friend last night watching an hbo series and drinking. i drank on an empty stomach, so i was pretty gone. at some point in the evening, i must have laid my head down on rory's lap, as when i woke up sometime after 3am, that's where i was. good times... he's really fun to be around. nothing like passing out at a new friend's house.
sean's back from his trip, which went well. i was a little (well, ok, more than a little) worried that things would be awkward or that he'd get nailed by painful memories. he said online today that the trip actually brought back a lot of good memories. he also said: *> I need to learn to enjoy the fact that I've had good times in my past.. instead of just missing them
i really admire that sentiment, and i know that a lot of the time i just miss the good memories and forget that i should enjoy the fact that they were good, and i lived them. time is so strange. static and elastic and all kinds of nebulous. especially when i'm remembering things. my mind had been on overdrive for a while now. i'd say on and off for 6 months. since just before the breakup, really. spending time with sean lets me relax. i still think, but it's not upsetting to do so. he is honestly the most amazing creature i've ever encountered. and the love i feel for him is transcendental. calming. i don't understand it at all, and i don't feel like i need to either. all i know is that it's good, and beautiful, and makes me feel like myself again.
funny how i started out with porn and ended the entry with love.
it also reminds me of a conversation i had with rory last night. he was asking if he'd told me about this ideas for a porn drinking game. when he said that, i immediately thought "shots for money shots" which is what he typed in a few seconds later while explaining it to me. he seemed entertained by the fact that that phrase was the first thing that i'd think of. i thought it seemed pretty obvious, yet highly entertaining.
hung out with rory and another friend last night watching an hbo series and drinking. i drank on an empty stomach, so i was pretty gone. at some point in the evening, i must have laid my head down on rory's lap, as when i woke up sometime after 3am, that's where i was. good times... he's really fun to be around. nothing like passing out at a new friend's house.
sean's back from his trip, which went well. i was a little (well, ok, more than a little) worried that things would be awkward or that he'd get nailed by painful memories. he said online today that the trip actually brought back a lot of good memories. he also said: *> I need to learn to enjoy the fact that I've had good times in my past.. instead of just missing them
i really admire that sentiment, and i know that a lot of the time i just miss the good memories and forget that i should enjoy the fact that they were good, and i lived them. time is so strange. static and elastic and all kinds of nebulous. especially when i'm remembering things. my mind had been on overdrive for a while now. i'd say on and off for 6 months. since just before the breakup, really. spending time with sean lets me relax. i still think, but it's not upsetting to do so. he is honestly the most amazing creature i've ever encountered. and the love i feel for him is transcendental. calming. i don't understand it at all, and i don't feel like i need to either. all i know is that it's good, and beautiful, and makes me feel like myself again.
funny how i started out with porn and ended the entry with love.