jared oh jared
I broke up with Sean on April 2. Today would have been me and his 8 month anniversary. Im feeling really depressed! Not about leaving Sean, about the fact that hes never who I REALLY wanted. Ive always wanted Jared! I had him as my official boyfriend, twice, and I fucked that up! Why the fuck would I do that when I knew all along that hes the guy Ive always wanted! Since the first time I saw him in whole foods while I was a customer. I swear, what the fuck did I do? Oh yea, cuz the fact that he is the perfect one for me, that wasnt enough. Im such a fucking moron! I havent been able to eat much, but booze is tasting mighty good and if I dont keep smokin, I cry. I fuckin just cant believe myself! I have to lose 20 pounds. Thats my mission. I want to feel better about myself and make Jared notice me again