clouds and terra firma
i won't say i didnt want to give up on him. well...not that i 'wanted' to be that i just couldnt carry on. now im feeling so much relief and responsibility at the same time. i expected more weight to be lifted from my shoulders. im expecting him to love me like the new girlfriend and now the one thats been around for a year or so. i want things to go back to me on the cloud floating with him powered by optimism and devotion. not that things aren't wonderful but im not ready to feel 'married'. in the sense of a business partnership. in fact...fuck it....i never want that. so i guess i'll keep my feet planted until that cloud comes rushing back in. i've had faith in him always and now that he's pulling through....my love for him is unstoppable.