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Well, lets see....life has been pretty sweet. It's had it's ups and downs, but what doesn't in life. Dan got an xB, which is awesome, because we both have scions which is very cute. He's teaching me how to drive stick, which I'll be awesome at because I pretty much know what to do already. School is tough, I had my first art critique, which went very well. Everyone liked my work, which felt really good, I put a lot of effort into it.
I feel as though my maturity is at a lull. I think falling in love so younger caused me to mature so quickly in many areas, but I am also lacking in others. I'm still hypersensitive and have the tendency to judge others, even if I do not mean what I am saying. My self-esteem has risen as well as my confidence. I am intelligent, creative and caring. I am not being conceited, I like who I am and who I am becoming. I know what I want to do as a career in life and it makes me so happy to think of that every morning. I hate my job now. I'm a good waitress, but I hate it sometimes. Just knowing that this won't be forever keeps me going.
I do want to marry Dan someday and I know that scares many people my age, but it doesn't scare me. He was the funny guy from eighth grade who I developed a huge crush on junior year at his band's show at e-street in freehold. It's almost two years now and things are getting even better.
As far as wisdom, I have learned so many life lessons after high school and I'm learning to not let the LITTLE things bother me like how much I run or weigh or how my hair looks. Now I think of how my art is turning out or my grades or even life in general. I can be very immature at times, but it's a lot better than I used to be. I know I'm rambling on and on, but I just need this stream of thoughts and I don't have a notebook to write this in right now.
I can finally realize who I am. I'm Amanda and I'm [in no particular order] Native American, Puerto Rican, Italian, German, African American and Polish. I'm in love with someone who is Irish, the one nationality I am not, haha. I've been vegetarian since the beginning of freshman year. I like creating art and helping people. I want to be a counselor in a drug rehab or a substance abuse coordinator in a high school. I am a hardworker, I'm ambitious and friendly. I can be a bitch when I'm not being treated right and I don't take crap from people. Most of all, I have a kind heart.
Hmmm....wow, long entry. Tonight should be great...Armor for Sleep with Dan<3
I feel as though my maturity is at a lull. I think falling in love so younger caused me to mature so quickly in many areas, but I am also lacking in others. I'm still hypersensitive and have the tendency to judge others, even if I do not mean what I am saying. My self-esteem has risen as well as my confidence. I am intelligent, creative and caring. I am not being conceited, I like who I am and who I am becoming. I know what I want to do as a career in life and it makes me so happy to think of that every morning. I hate my job now. I'm a good waitress, but I hate it sometimes. Just knowing that this won't be forever keeps me going.
I do want to marry Dan someday and I know that scares many people my age, but it doesn't scare me. He was the funny guy from eighth grade who I developed a huge crush on junior year at his band's show at e-street in freehold. It's almost two years now and things are getting even better.
As far as wisdom, I have learned so many life lessons after high school and I'm learning to not let the LITTLE things bother me like how much I run or weigh or how my hair looks. Now I think of how my art is turning out or my grades or even life in general. I can be very immature at times, but it's a lot better than I used to be. I know I'm rambling on and on, but I just need this stream of thoughts and I don't have a notebook to write this in right now.
I can finally realize who I am. I'm Amanda and I'm [in no particular order] Native American, Puerto Rican, Italian, German, African American and Polish. I'm in love with someone who is Irish, the one nationality I am not, haha. I've been vegetarian since the beginning of freshman year. I like creating art and helping people. I want to be a counselor in a drug rehab or a substance abuse coordinator in a high school. I am a hardworker, I'm ambitious and friendly. I can be a bitch when I'm not being treated right and I don't take crap from people. Most of all, I have a kind heart.
Hmmm....wow, long entry. Tonight should be great...Armor for Sleep with Dan<3