Another extended break....
Well, after being quite a busy queen since my last entry, I finally was able to catch my breath and post an entry to let everyone know that I'm fine, all is good and life couldn't be better..... :-)
Work has been extremely busy and the first week that I started my new position with a new company there were days where I was like 'OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO'? It was chaotic with negative vibes circulating our department and I really had to reign in the ropes with my staff (and myself) and get our shit together. The person I replaced was a lazy idiot who didn't get projects completed, depleted morale among the team and it was a total shit show. Having plowed through all the bullshit, establishing a better team attitude and actually meeting some of our customers who got fucked around, we've finally turned a corner. I'm really enjoying my colleagues, my staff, customers and 'Ms. Fix It' saved the day......that's what they're calling me and I'm good with it!
Amanda and I split a few weeks ago and so be it. Turned out that she actually had a cocaine 'issue' and I gave her an ultimatum and she chose her powder.....whatever. You know, I had no issues smoking weed with her, and really I had given that stuff up years ago as I did my fair share in Uni.....I had the bong and all and once I graduated I ditched the daily stoning ritual for the occasional drag at parties. Yes, I did coke a few times when I stripped.....okay, maybe more than a few times but thank god it didn't develop into an addiction. Sorry, I just couldn't be with someone using hard drugs and trust me, I was fucking shocked as hell when I found out. She got pissed at me for not joining in with her and that's when I realized we were done. Yes, she broke my heart but I've been through enough and am tough enough to move on.....and I have. :-)
Still, it feels like a curse that another relationship has gone awry and imploded. Is it bad luck or am I better off? I don't know, but I do know that I've never been good at them and my marriage was the longest I had been with someone until that imploded as well. Maybe I'm not relationship material and just meant to be with someone for a short term and then move on to the next. Maybe I haven't met that someone that isn't a drug addict or a cheater.
Maybe it's me?
Regardless, yours truly has been seeing someone and we both know it's just for the sex and nothing else.....which is fine. As my ex has the little guy every weekend, Dom and I get together for sex and I have to admit when he's inside me it's the best feeling in the world....if anything, the majority of the guys I've been with have been blessed with anatomy that would make any woman happy. As he's Italian, tall dark and handsome (6'5") he's also ten years younger than I and a complete stud in bed. Incredibly fit, muscular, a few tats and has both nipples pierced. I'm contemplating on having mine done as both of mine were pierced years ago but had them removed before I gave birth.....loved them, but the recovery time was something else and I'm not sure if I want to go through that again.
Still, lucky me....
Interesting how we met.....at the Starbucks actually that I go to every day for my dose of caffeine....the one time he handed me my coffee with his number on it so I thought what the fuck, why not? That was a couple of weeks ago and although we do spend quite a bit of time together, we know it's not long term...we just enjoy the physical aspect of our relationship. He's working on his law degree and he'll be a fabulous lawyer one day.....
I've actually joined a gym as my employer has a $500 fit credit so I decided to take advantage of it. The bulk of my workouts are at home, and on weekends I hit the gym focusing on my leg workouts. I'm pretty much back in the shape I was before covid but as I can be self-absorbed, I'm always continuing to push myself harder.
Well, that's my update for now......time for a cigarette.
Ciao......