Monstrosity
Sometimes I am randomly amazed by the simplest things. For example today I was sitting in the car with my mother and I randomly in awe of a human being. I mean I was perplexed at how one can moves one owns arm and limbs by thinking about. Then they can think even more and by the bending of the foot from the leg by means of your ankle then because of this you can move a two-some-odd ton objects. I mean of course driving. A few weeks ago I was thinking about my heart. It constantly works to pump life through my body, but I never feel it move. Then I tried to feel my heart beat with feeling it with my hand and it kind of hurt. Its called a palpitation. Weird stuff. And sometimes when I space out I think about perpetual light which there would be no shadows whatsoever. Imagine nothing but pure color without any shadows. So bizarre. Its so hard to grasp. I try to imagine myself just floating. I'm wearing clothes and I try to think of the color under my clothes because since there is no shadow this part is also light, but I can't imagine no shadows. And I think about things like hair. Why does it grow where it grows, and why only on some people. I mean if it is because of evolution and we stopped growing hair because of clothes then what about pubic/chest/leg/stomach hair? I know that sounds gross, but try and think about from an objective stand point. And I think about words. Why are some words considered cursed? I mean okay if it is in the Bible to not swear think about that. The bible was not written in English originally, so who decided what words were bad. Then I think about what if there were no bad words. I think that would make things easier. If they just become another word then they lose their power is something horrid and then they are just useless intesifiers. Like this fucking shit. Means nothing. But because they are "taboo" words society makes them mean something. What if one words meant something else? And how are acronyms created? Who first said LOL? I'm sorry. I'm not on drugs or anything but I am mesmerized by the world and people and these things we put value in that really don't mean much. These are just words I'm typing. These are not permanent. Just weird.