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wow. I can't believe it's been almost two months since I posted. I guess I just stopped because I had been so depressed and felt like my life was going nowhere.
I can't believe how much can change in so little time. I'm back in law school for the summer, I'm getting a g tube on June 12th to help me with the eating. Eating is so hard, but the tube will help. I have a new boyfriend who is incredible.
I am starting to feel better although I'm somewhat scared because I am so used to eating very little and my body has adjusted. A few months ago, I felt like I was dying from the starvation, but now I feel fine, which is really weird because my weight is lower. Honestly, I have not lost much weight, but the healthy part of me knows I can't afford to lose any weight if I'm going to be in law school so in many ways it's a good thing.
I have the motivation to keep myself at least somewhat healthy because I do want to live and I have a life and I have many friends from school who care about me. The boy knows about my eating disorder and doesn't push me too much. He's 34, which is 8 years older than me, but I really like that. Chris was 3 years younger than me and so immature.
I'm doing a day program 3 days a week, which is not specific to eating disorders, but its still helpful.
Anyway, I will write more tomorrow, but I have to go to bed. I just wanted to come by and let whoever reads this know that I'm alive. ha!
I can't believe how much can change in so little time. I'm back in law school for the summer, I'm getting a g tube on June 12th to help me with the eating. Eating is so hard, but the tube will help. I have a new boyfriend who is incredible.
I am starting to feel better although I'm somewhat scared because I am so used to eating very little and my body has adjusted. A few months ago, I felt like I was dying from the starvation, but now I feel fine, which is really weird because my weight is lower. Honestly, I have not lost much weight, but the healthy part of me knows I can't afford to lose any weight if I'm going to be in law school so in many ways it's a good thing.
I have the motivation to keep myself at least somewhat healthy because I do want to live and I have a life and I have many friends from school who care about me. The boy knows about my eating disorder and doesn't push me too much. He's 34, which is 8 years older than me, but I really like that. Chris was 3 years younger than me and so immature.
I'm doing a day program 3 days a week, which is not specific to eating disorders, but its still helpful.
Anyway, I will write more tomorrow, but I have to go to bed. I just wanted to come by and let whoever reads this know that I'm alive. ha!