Life
It's insane how much has changed in my life. I know anyone can say the same thing, but I can guarantee no one has been through what I've been through in the 20 years of my life. At the same time I've had one of the best lives in terms of all the outcomes of it all. Everything has been leading me to somewhere, I just wish I knew where that somewhere was and if it's something worth all the shit I've been through. fuuuuuuuck. Someone once told me what comes around goes around; now I've done some fucked up stuff but nothing to hurt anyone intentionally. He told me karma will get at me... but still to this day I'm waiting. He says maybe I'm just looking too hard. That's just crap. People made karma up to make you feel better over the fact that liars, cheaters, and stealer don't face the consequences when the people who've been through hell and back, had to struggle, and see no hope in sight never get a break will eventually get theirs'. If only I could go back... back before it all... and just have a do-over. But I know better than anyone that that's just fairy tales. I don't know how much longer I can do this for...