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i'm wondering about things. i'm wondering if i'm doing right about certain situations. i keep trying to force myself to do the right things and not do anything that i wouldn't want done to me but sometimes that's extremely hard. what can i say? i'm a people pleaser and i like to make people happy.
i'm stuck between wanting to be selfish for me and wanting to be selfish for others well being. i can't tell if what i'm doing is a good thing or not. but lately i've just not even cared. i'm happy where i'm at and who i'm being but i still feel bad in other ways because i feel like i'm not doing right by the people that i know that affect directly.
fuck it. i'm happy. fucking happy of the happiest. i've not felt like this in awhile so you know what -- "just go with it."
no work tomorrow. fucking awesome i'm telling ya. i've got a lot of shit to do like -- go to the doctor, get my stuff from brandons, and stuff that i don't really feel like getting into. just business baby. i'm a busy girl lately -- i can't decide, good thing or bad? who knows. i like it regardless.
i'm stuck between wanting to be selfish for me and wanting to be selfish for others well being. i can't tell if what i'm doing is a good thing or not. but lately i've just not even cared. i'm happy where i'm at and who i'm being but i still feel bad in other ways because i feel like i'm not doing right by the people that i know that affect directly.
fuck it. i'm happy. fucking happy of the happiest. i've not felt like this in awhile so you know what -- "just go with it."
no work tomorrow. fucking awesome i'm telling ya. i've got a lot of shit to do like -- go to the doctor, get my stuff from brandons, and stuff that i don't really feel like getting into. just business baby. i'm a busy girl lately -- i can't decide, good thing or bad? who knows. i like it regardless.