I'm still alive
It has been forever since I have posted, but I realise that I have been losing friends so I am updating. I have been on the hardest journey that I could have ever imagined. I left marty in august, and have been on my own since then, I live in a one room efficency, it is rather nice, it includes cable and hbo, ac, and electric and wireless internet for 520/mo. I am afraid that we will outgrow it this year though. Max is amazing, he is walking, saying words, and being just a little shit. I had to stop breastfeeding him a week after I left marty because the milk just dissappeared, I did everything I could to get it back, but I was told that the stress I was under made me dry up. I felt like such a bad mother, but it was out of my control. I did start losing weight shortly after that, so far I have lost 69 pounds. I started going to the gym mid December, and I have never felt better.
I want you all to know that I read lj at least once a week, and still want to be on you're friends list. Please don't delete me, I still care. I'ts just so hard to put down what I'm feeling.
Sorry for the lack of lj cut, I forgot how.
I want you all to know that I read lj at least once a week, and still want to be on you're friends list. Please don't delete me, I still care. I'ts just so hard to put down what I'm feeling.
Sorry for the lack of lj cut, I forgot how.
