In Loving Memory:
So my step mom passed away on Monday. Things havent been quite to good since and the rain isnt helping. I dont know if I ever wrote about her but Ill give the scoop. She had breast cancer which quickly drained her of her energy and she had many complications with breathing and her lungs and such. She was in and out of the hospital with treatments. Then it spread to her brain causing her to not only go through kemo but radiation as well. the doctors were still hopeful but it was slim. The past few weeks she had been in the hospital and I just expected her to get better and come back home before I visited her. Finally my dad came over and said that the doctors told him the cancer was now all throughout her body and were basically askin her how she wanted to spend her last few moments of life. Still, I didnt get the courage to go and see her. I was talking to danny about it at work Monday and how I should take my brother sometime this week to go see her. That chance never happened. My dad called me while i was at work and left a message. She had passed away at 6:00. So now I feel bad I never got to see her one last time and I feel selfish that the reason I didnt was because of how scared I was and even in thinking that I felt selfish and in my whole relationship i had with her I was selfish. I never really gave her a chance. I know my dad loved her very much, but I didnt fully open up to her. I didnt want to hurt my mom if I did. Lifes to short to be selfish. Live life for the happiness of others and I gaurentee you it will be twice as blessed. Thats what st teresa did. How cute of a woman was she. Anyways that is my revelation of the week