I know, I know....

[anahata56]

It's been a long time since I've been here. In all honesty, life has been busy at best, crushingly so at worst. And I've found myself in this wordless place--probably because I've found myself in a place that has had life and circumstances swirling so madly around me that there has been no space to think a thought, let alone craft a sentence worthy

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[anahata56]

The thing that's hard for me to swallow, Paula, is that while I know in my heart that I am loved unconditionally, the very FIRST people who were supposed to love me that way--my parents, my family--have never done so. And while I know that there are those people in the world who love me dearly, it's hard to trust it when the people who were put on this planet to teach you what love is have given you such a completely twisted picture of what it's supposed to look like. And I know that a lot of what twists Christianity is manmade--a result of people changing what Christianity teaches to serve their own purposes and their own judgemental attitudes. But it is so prevalent, and so virulent...

Would that you, and others like you, could have a little word with them. But the truth is that I've seen them do it to you as well, so I know that you know what I'm talking about.

But when I think about what this has done in my own family, let alone what I have seen it do in the world, it just makes me heartsick.

Jobe and Leah have actually been a huge help, but I will say that patience with the smallness of the house is beginning to wear thin--there's only so much time you can spend tripping over each other before the frustration starts to show. With any luck at all, the state of South Carolina will get their act together and let them get home to where they belong.