My life's far from perfect
Everytime I run into friends at parties I'm always told how happy and cute I am. Everyone thinks I'm so positive and content with my life. At times yes but not in general. I feel bummed too, I feel sad almost everytime I'm alone and I feel lost. It feels like I'm always there for my friends - I pick up the phone at night if they're calling. I always have my phone on sound while sleeping in case someone should feel sad and wanting to talk to me. When I call they don't respond or they text me - wtf? I just want them to call me back if they don't pick up and ask me if I'm alright?
I am the kind of person who do not show my emotions to everyone. I am very closed at times and I thnik that's why everyone seems to think I'm so fucking happy. Well guess what, I'm not!!
Tonight was family-dinner night.. my sister-in-law is so mean to me all the time and I hate it. I have difficulty standing up for myself bc I don't want my brother to think I don't like her. THey are married and he would be so sad if I got furious at her and told her. I don't know.. I don't like family-dinners and I don't really want to be at them
Needed to get this out.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with my friend Anja and studying with her for 5 hrs. Now I need to finish off a chapter about the blood and then I'm off to bed. Haven't heard from Greg today bc there's a festival where he lives. I miss him dearly and could use his voice right now..
I am the kind of person who do not show my emotions to everyone. I am very closed at times and I thnik that's why everyone seems to think I'm so fucking happy. Well guess what, I'm not!!
Tonight was family-dinner night.. my sister-in-law is so mean to me all the time and I hate it. I have difficulty standing up for myself bc I don't want my brother to think I don't like her. THey are married and he would be so sad if I got furious at her and told her. I don't know.. I don't like family-dinners and I don't really want to be at them
Needed to get this out.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with my friend Anja and studying with her for 5 hrs. Now I need to finish off a chapter about the blood and then I'm off to bed. Haven't heard from Greg today bc there's a festival where he lives. I miss him dearly and could use his voice right now..