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Was with an old friend of mine today. who used to have anxiety, depression, anorexia, borderline and cutting.. She's doing so good now and out of hospital. I'm so proud of her! She's like my new therapist now guiding me through life:)
I had dinner with her - I NEVER eat in public or infront of anyone but we cooked today! Haven't cooked in years. I went alright - lettuce with bulgur, tuna and veggies.
I got so bloated tho! Bc I never eat dinner. We walked for 2.5 hrs tho so I'm okay not stressing too much about it. WHO am I kidding - I'm so stressed about it, I've been fiddling (word?) with my legs, smoking again, jumping..
I looked pregnant. My tummy was so big and hard as a rock. I pooped tho for the first time in 3 days. It's smaller now, the tummy.. Hope I look thin tomorrow when I wake up.
Jacob just texted me. He contacts me everyday:)
I have insomnia again bad! I go to bed at like 4-8 am... and no napping... sleeps 3 hrs a day:(