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Today sucked. Majorly.
Asked out the guy that I made out with that one day.. and he turned me down. Apparently, he didn't want to ask me out, being shy?!, and wasn't going to wait to ask me out.. so he's got a girlfriend.
Then.. I dunno wtf happened.. but during Camelot rehearsal.. I just broke down. And again when I went to my friend Jen's after rehearsal. "Disappear" by Hoobastank came on the radio, and she went to change the station, knowing about that song.. but I stopped her. Told her I wanted to test myself, see if I could listen to that song all the way through without crying. Yeah, needless to say, I failed. And miserably at that.
I'm so sick of all this bullshit. I'm sick of being lied to, led on, hurt, and just plain betrayed. I'm not sure what to do to stop it, though.
I feel lost. I feel helpless. And I hate it.
-'Manda
Hey God,
Why are you doing this to me?
Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity?
Hey God,
I think you owe me a great big apology.
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Hey God,
I really don't know what you mean.
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams.
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
Hey God,
Can this world really be as sad as it seems?
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Don't take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to.
Don't take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to.
Hey God,
There's nothing left for me to hide.
I lost my ignorance, security and pride.
I'm all alone in a world you must despise.
Hey God,
I believed your promises, your promises and lies.
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
You made me throw it all away.
My morals left to decay.
How many you betray.
You've taken everything.
Terrible lie.
My head is filled with disease.
My skin is begging you please.
I'm on my hands and knees.
I want so much to believe.
I need someone to hold on to.
I need someone to hold on to.
I need someone i need someone.
I need someone to hold on to.
I give you everything.
My sweet everything.
Hey God,
I really don't know who i am,
In this world of piss.
Nine Inch Nails - Terrible Lie
Asked out the guy that I made out with that one day.. and he turned me down. Apparently, he didn't want to ask me out, being shy?!, and wasn't going to wait to ask me out.. so he's got a girlfriend.
Then.. I dunno wtf happened.. but during Camelot rehearsal.. I just broke down. And again when I went to my friend Jen's after rehearsal. "Disappear" by Hoobastank came on the radio, and she went to change the station, knowing about that song.. but I stopped her. Told her I wanted to test myself, see if I could listen to that song all the way through without crying. Yeah, needless to say, I failed. And miserably at that.
I'm so sick of all this bullshit. I'm sick of being lied to, led on, hurt, and just plain betrayed. I'm not sure what to do to stop it, though.
I feel lost. I feel helpless. And I hate it.
-'Manda
Hey God,
Why are you doing this to me?
Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity?
Hey God,
I think you owe me a great big apology.
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Hey God,
I really don't know what you mean.
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams.
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
Hey God,
Can this world really be as sad as it seems?
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Don't take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to.
Don't take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to.
Hey God,
There's nothing left for me to hide.
I lost my ignorance, security and pride.
I'm all alone in a world you must despise.
Hey God,
I believed your promises, your promises and lies.
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
You made me throw it all away.
My morals left to decay.
How many you betray.
You've taken everything.
Terrible lie.
My head is filled with disease.
My skin is begging you please.
I'm on my hands and knees.
I want so much to believe.
I need someone to hold on to.
I need someone to hold on to.
I need someone i need someone.
I need someone to hold on to.
I give you everything.
My sweet everything.
Hey God,
I really don't know who i am,
In this world of piss.
Nine Inch Nails - Terrible Lie