Forgive me! (One shot)
Title: Forgive me!
Author: Me! =D
Pairing: YamaJima! <3
Rating: PG~~
Warnings: None I guess?
Summary: Yuto’s not happy with how his relationship with Yamada had turned out to be; that’s why he decided to write a letter, opening his hear to his beloved friend!
Note: I made this fic inspired by “Mi Dispiace”, my fav song from Laura Pausini… I guess you can say it’s kind of a parody. If you want I highly recommend to listen to her song while reading! XD
Note 2: Mika~~ I made this thinking of you! XD Happy B-day again!
Note3: I hope it does not suck! DD8
Yama-chan...I last night I had a dream.
I dreamed that you knocked at my door and a bit confuse you took you glasses off, looking away. Maybe you did that to see me better?
And for the first time I felt that you knew that we were not the same as before.
Then you hugged me...Feeling amazed.
Even if you were sad and did not felt at easy, there were such a long time that we did not hugged.
And in the middle of the silence I said "Forgive me".
But a loud noise made me wake up and cry. I again remembered our old time together.
Our good time as Jr., that lost days were the sky in Hawaii was just like the sea.
Me and my overexcitement always listened to what you had to say, all that silly childish things that made us giggle.
And when I least expected you were already sleeping soundly at my shoulder.
I had no idea how happy I was...
Without noticing, with 15 years old I changed. I realized how I felt about you.
I felt lonely and desperate with that feeling; I wasn't the friend I wanted to be anymore.
And our old friendship ended then. That chitchat after work that always made me happy also ended.
I hid behind a fake eagerness and you felt awkward towards our new friendship...
So I started to distance myself from you...I couldn’t stand feeling my heart ache when I was near you.
After that I also started to feel jealous, because you grew to be so beautiful, unachievable and great!
I automatically put my heart in a bottle and throw it in the sea when I saw that you were also distancing yourself from me.
I wanted to forget everything, erase my memory...I lacked courage! I was so ashamed, because I was in love with you, my best friend.
Please don't search for my door... Because I have a dream with you that I cannot fulfill.
Now I have so much of emptiness in my heart, everything due to my prejudice.
But I guess if you really knocked at my door, I wouldn’t be able to say a word.
You would feel awkward again and I would feel alone once more.
That's why I'm writing this strange letter... To, at least, feel at ease with myself and apologize to you even if it’s late... Please forgive me!
It's not truth that I'm ashamed of my feelings anymore! And inside me I feel that we can be once more the way we used to be...
I love you, Ryousuke!
Please give me an answer...
Your old friend,
Yuto.