Due to lack of sanity, entries have not been posted.
Things have been crazy with me. Well, as crazy as they can be considering I stay at home and do not much else besides take care of a kid. After being "diagnosed" by the doc, I went to another doctor for a follow up and a prescription for physical therapy. Now...apparently here in Germany, that means massages. Ordinarily, I'd sigh happily at the thought of a massage but...these are painful. Apparently I have SO many hard knots and kinks going on in my shoulder that it is hard to work them out. When I talk about my shoulder, I mean the shoulder part of my back, not the actual part on the arm, though that has been hurting too. The pains I was getting were stemming from my back and moving all the way down to my elbow. Last week, funnily enough the next to last session, the masseuse (sp?) FINALLY figured out that the pain wasn't starting from my back, it is starting from my neck. So she concentrated on that area and I was able at last to sleep through the night and not wake up from my shoulder hurting. Mind you, I still woke up from a little nine month old whimpering and shifting around, but at least it wasn't PAIN that had me awake. So today is my last session, or at least my last scheduled/insurance covered session.
My hormones have been off kilter for a few weeks now. I have been depressed. I think it might be partly from the pain in my shoulder, but I can't quite put my finger on all of it. It isn't clicking. What also isn't clicking is that I get mad, I mean steaming seeing red mad, at the drop of a hat. It's like...hearing that some friends of mine that are getting divorced that I NEVER thought would get divorced flicked a switch in my brain and now I'm trying everything in my power to argue and fight and push my husbands buttons. I almost feel like my sub concious is trying to test us, see if we can withstand some harsh times. I hope that isn't what it is, but I have a feeling that isn't too far from the truth. Hubby started a new job mid February so I'm not seeing him as much as I did in January, but it still isn't bad. He leaves at 8:30 and is home usually around 7, which is a heck of a lot better than his previous away from home times. Might I add, completely off the subject, that he's a fantastic cook? Anyway, I have got to figure out a way to get past this anger, once I figure out just exactly what is triggering it.
Gotta go prepare some breakfast now.
My hormones have been off kilter for a few weeks now. I have been depressed. I think it might be partly from the pain in my shoulder, but I can't quite put my finger on all of it. It isn't clicking. What also isn't clicking is that I get mad, I mean steaming seeing red mad, at the drop of a hat. It's like...hearing that some friends of mine that are getting divorced that I NEVER thought would get divorced flicked a switch in my brain and now I'm trying everything in my power to argue and fight and push my husbands buttons. I almost feel like my sub concious is trying to test us, see if we can withstand some harsh times. I hope that isn't what it is, but I have a feeling that isn't too far from the truth. Hubby started a new job mid February so I'm not seeing him as much as I did in January, but it still isn't bad. He leaves at 8:30 and is home usually around 7, which is a heck of a lot better than his previous away from home times. Might I add, completely off the subject, that he's a fantastic cook? Anyway, I have got to figure out a way to get past this anger, once I figure out just exactly what is triggering it.
Gotta go prepare some breakfast now.