Mar 01, 2006 23:17
I binged/purged for the first time in a couple of months today. It felt good but I feel like shit now. I'm worried it will get bad again. But I can't go on living in this body. I don't want to die. I just want to change my body. I will lose again and be what I was a year ago. I don't care if that means being unhealthy.