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i'm sucking it all in. i know i'm going to cry. i know i'm going to regret the chances i had but i feel numb right now. i'm crying inside. i know it. i'm just holding it in. i don't want her to leave. i don't want anyone to leave. they're all leaving. who's gonna be here with me? who should i blame? i want to blame this damn country. i want to blame certain circumstances. i want to blame so many things. i'm just stupidly upset.