aha!
i think i am simply done trying to figure out what it is people want from me. i simply want to BE me.
i have spent hours and days trying to take all the pieces and put them together to come up with an end result. The description not descript enough, the needs not specified... i am simply handing over my heart on a platter and it can be stamped anyway necessary.
it seems to be all i have and i need to stop apologizing for that because it is not
"just" or
"merely" or any other trite word of such.
i have expended an unnumerable amount of hours stressing over such uneccesary things as this and my brain has crumbled into mush.
it is all over and what have i learned:
that trying to be what others want you to be teaches you nothing.
my heart is too strong, my will is too thick.
i am like oil and shining in the sunlight.
maybe not oil because oil is kinda gross sometimes... but it DOES produce helium... rather helium is found in oil pockets in the ground and....
time for sleep. oh yes oh yes oh wait...
one last thing...
i have spent hours and days trying to take all the pieces and put them together to come up with an end result. The description not descript enough, the needs not specified... i am simply handing over my heart on a platter and it can be stamped anyway necessary.
it seems to be all i have and i need to stop apologizing for that because it is not
"just" or
"merely" or any other trite word of such.
i have expended an unnumerable amount of hours stressing over such uneccesary things as this and my brain has crumbled into mush.
it is all over and what have i learned:
that trying to be what others want you to be teaches you nothing.
my heart is too strong, my will is too thick.
i am like oil and shining in the sunlight.
maybe not oil because oil is kinda gross sometimes... but it DOES produce helium... rather helium is found in oil pockets in the ground and....
time for sleep. oh yes oh yes oh wait...
one last thing...