freaked out!!
I just have to say that i am freakin sick of everything and everybody . especially myself. i am so ashamed right now because all i have ever wanted was too be skinny an thin and beautiful and i havent been doing anything about it but fucking binging and purging most of the time not even purging. and im mad and i know anas mad at me which hurts the most i am not letting anything get in the way of my dream this time not my family not my hunger not my lack of will power. because i will succeed i will be perfect. i feel for all you girls out there who are perfectionists i know that most of the anarexic communitie is and perfectionism is a bitch thats all i have to say about it. And this time even though i have said this already im totally repeating myself right now but i am making a promise to myself, to ana and to everyone out there who is reading this that i will fast as long as possible i will restrict restrict restrict and purge if i eat anything and will only eat what is absolutely nessecary. i will not break my promises..