A very personal project
I need to remind myself to spend less time "window shopping" on social media and spend more time figuring out how to revamp myself.
A month ago, I got a nutritionist to help coach me to lose weight. I basically paid someone x amount of money so that I could prove his services are effective on me. So far, I believe my diet has been working. It's weird though because I thought that losing weight would make me feel good inside. I don't feel good inside. I'll be on this program for at least three months, so I do hope by the end of the year, I will no longer struggle with self love.
Last weekend, I hosted a Zoom hang-out with my friends to talk about "redefining moments" that have shaped who we are today. A friend shared something about the importance of deep work and I was reminded that this so-called deep work has been lacking in my life ever since I joined my company. I remember telling myself how unhappy I was with my work environment and even telling my boss that I felt uninspired (bored). Earlier this year, I decided to start exploring my options because I wanted to get myself out of this rut - Good job, me! That is an act of self love right there.
I accepted an interview from my former boss for a role in my previous company (it did not pan out). I applied to a leadership program in hopes that it would create more opportunities for me within the company. I actually just completed my last requirement and I have no idea what exactly that program has done for my career. Don't get me wrong, the workshops were very helpful and I love that I was able to network with other leads in my level, but the big question is - WHAT'S NEXT?
Honestly, the only reason why I'm performing very well in this lockdown is because of the change in environment. I'm not a fan of rigid structures. This is a welcome change (sadly, given the circumstances). I know it's a huge privilege to be working from home and I am so grateful for that. But I can tell that I'm still not happy because of new bad habits I've developed and also the fact that I just don't feel good inside.
It might also be because I recently got out of a relationship, right? I know myself though. I handle break-ups pretty well. But hey it's been less than two months. Be kind, don't rewind.
You're doing really great, Piggy. Keep it up! Focus on yourself 🧡
A month ago, I got a nutritionist to help coach me to lose weight. I basically paid someone x amount of money so that I could prove his services are effective on me. So far, I believe my diet has been working. It's weird though because I thought that losing weight would make me feel good inside. I don't feel good inside. I'll be on this program for at least three months, so I do hope by the end of the year, I will no longer struggle with self love.
Last weekend, I hosted a Zoom hang-out with my friends to talk about "redefining moments" that have shaped who we are today. A friend shared something about the importance of deep work and I was reminded that this so-called deep work has been lacking in my life ever since I joined my company. I remember telling myself how unhappy I was with my work environment and even telling my boss that I felt uninspired (bored). Earlier this year, I decided to start exploring my options because I wanted to get myself out of this rut - Good job, me! That is an act of self love right there.
I accepted an interview from my former boss for a role in my previous company (it did not pan out). I applied to a leadership program in hopes that it would create more opportunities for me within the company. I actually just completed my last requirement and I have no idea what exactly that program has done for my career. Don't get me wrong, the workshops were very helpful and I love that I was able to network with other leads in my level, but the big question is - WHAT'S NEXT?
Honestly, the only reason why I'm performing very well in this lockdown is because of the change in environment. I'm not a fan of rigid structures. This is a welcome change (sadly, given the circumstances). I know it's a huge privilege to be working from home and I am so grateful for that. But I can tell that I'm still not happy because of new bad habits I've developed and also the fact that I just don't feel good inside.
It might also be because I recently got out of a relationship, right? I know myself though. I handle break-ups pretty well. But hey it's been less than two months. Be kind, don't rewind.
You're doing really great, Piggy. Keep it up! Focus on yourself 🧡