Your Body May Be Gone Im Gonna Carry it In
worst
halloween
ever. came home and talked to albert about it.
I dont know if I really like anyone anymore. You know, since no one can be bothered to just chill a little, talk to me or whatever. I dont think its really that bad anymore though, I mean, its not that terrible to talk to myself and to walk by myself even when Im with all my friends. Its not so bad to fake life.
most days.
but Im not gonna type up what happened so you can not read it. fuck you.
new Green Day CD booooo. laaame.
its kinda funny that I act all normal or happy at school and laugh a lot and smile all the time when I just drop into it at home or online. I guess its cause writing here is like talking to myself so no ones gonna freak out.
I told James I wish I'd never been born last night and he went freaky deaky dutch on me about it. Im not allowed to say that anymore.
but honesty isnt that important.
I was thinking about my cruise friends today and about how I can hardly remember them sometimes, and it feels like they're just some weird memory I have. Adams been gone and Rae too, Ive talked to Jon and Jill a little, and Wes from time to time, but its like everyone's dead lately.
I think the whole world is just dead. but I understand
To think I might not see those eyes...
I have art with briana today...thank god...I need some time to paint and forget about everyone. Im gonna go get a drink.
[the thoughts I had of you remind me of the pattern of the man whos had the same haircut for the last 40 years but now is ready for a change]
=baby, yeah yeah yeah=
halloween
ever. came home and talked to albert about it.
I dont know if I really like anyone anymore. You know, since no one can be bothered to just chill a little, talk to me or whatever. I dont think its really that bad anymore though, I mean, its not that terrible to talk to myself and to walk by myself even when Im with all my friends. Its not so bad to fake life.
most days.
but Im not gonna type up what happened so you can not read it. fuck you.
new Green Day CD booooo. laaame.
its kinda funny that I act all normal or happy at school and laugh a lot and smile all the time when I just drop into it at home or online. I guess its cause writing here is like talking to myself so no ones gonna freak out.
I told James I wish I'd never been born last night and he went freaky deaky dutch on me about it. Im not allowed to say that anymore.
but honesty isnt that important.
I was thinking about my cruise friends today and about how I can hardly remember them sometimes, and it feels like they're just some weird memory I have. Adams been gone and Rae too, Ive talked to Jon and Jill a little, and Wes from time to time, but its like everyone's dead lately.
I think the whole world is just dead. but I understand
To think I might not see those eyes...
I have art with briana today...thank god...I need some time to paint and forget about everyone. Im gonna go get a drink.
[the thoughts I had of you remind me of the pattern of the man whos had the same haircut for the last 40 years but now is ready for a change]
=baby, yeah yeah yeah=