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I really hate my parents. My dad is an ass who has spent the last 19 years trying to weasel his way out of paying for that runaway sperm and my mom is a psychotic bitch more than half of the time these days. I really don't know what to do anymore. I fell asleep watching a movie at Lance's house again and then I wake up to see 8 missed calls from my mom. I immediately got up and went outside to get in my car while I was dialing her number to let her know I was coming. I shut the door and walk outside to find my car gone. She's all smug like she is teaching me a lesson with this and I am just hysterical because I am locked outside at 4:30 in the morning on Alabama Street with the fucking ghetto right there and I am terrified. I try to tell her this and she's so busy explaining her good joke on me that she doesn't listen for the first five minutes. When she finally got it through her head that I needed her to come get me I was seriously to the point of tears. I spent nearly twenty minutes out there so yea, when she pulled up finally and started blaming me for my stepdad having to get up at 3 to come get my car, I wasn't having it.
They are so insane. My stepdad wanted me to come home last night rather than be with Winston. Considering the circumstances I think that talking to one of my best friends who just lost his only brother is a little more important. At nine o'clock they were all freaking out wanting me home. I understand that I am going off to school in two weeks and this is their last little clingy hurrah, but I just can't take it. If they seriously have taken my car away from me I am just going to say screw them. If my stepdad doesn't understand why I never want to be home with my mom then fuck him too. I hate that. He's always been there for me, but my mother honestly makes me insane. I don't want to be like her, it's one of my biggest fears in life. I'm scared that every day I spend here listening to her the closer I come to being that person that I hate so much. I wish my mom would go back to being the normal awesome mom she was when I was growing up. The trouble is, I'm starting to wonder if that person ever existed in the first place.
They are so insane. My stepdad wanted me to come home last night rather than be with Winston. Considering the circumstances I think that talking to one of my best friends who just lost his only brother is a little more important. At nine o'clock they were all freaking out wanting me home. I understand that I am going off to school in two weeks and this is their last little clingy hurrah, but I just can't take it. If they seriously have taken my car away from me I am just going to say screw them. If my stepdad doesn't understand why I never want to be home with my mom then fuck him too. I hate that. He's always been there for me, but my mother honestly makes me insane. I don't want to be like her, it's one of my biggest fears in life. I'm scared that every day I spend here listening to her the closer I come to being that person that I hate so much. I wish my mom would go back to being the normal awesome mom she was when I was growing up. The trouble is, I'm starting to wonder if that person ever existed in the first place.