jane fonda
omg, the lady at this new vintage store in town let me get the jane fonda workout record for FREE, well it was a dollar, but i'm the only one that can appreciate her. My mom had her original workout tape from 82. if you know me, then you know i've always had a battle with weight, this was in fact the ONLY video that gave me real results in LITTLE time, but then of course it disapeared , le sigh. In fact the original workout tape is the most sought after video that she did for very obvious reasons. I've found a few copies on amazon, i'll purchase one when i get 30 dollars or so...you may be asking 30 dollars for an old vhs WORTH EVERY PENNY, in fact i'd pay 100, i really wish the company would re release this one on dvd..i need to write them. But i did find her workout book , which i had found at half priced books ages ago for a pretty penny, the amazon price was an amazing 98 cents...so yeah i had to go ahead and order that, and to boot the seller is in frisco! Hell yeah, i'm really ready to lose the rest of my weight and get right for the summer. My main motivation behind this is i want to dance more publicly(belly dance) and well, unfortunately i'm not in the arab countries where a woman with my meat is acceptable, but for the more americanized audiences i'd feel MEGA self conscious. Besides i've been down on myself lately. I can deal with being sorta fat, but what has been driving me wild and making me anxious is my height, the ONE thing i will never be able to change. *le sigh* I've just been noticing again lately how much taller i am than EVERYBODY, like i look at all these perfect, and some not so perfect women who are of acceptable "normal" height, like I walked into the school bathroom today and i'm literally towering over all the females, people tend to look up at me scared and scurry out of the way, like i'm about to eat them or something.So then i see how most guys react to me, and that is they don't or don't know what to do, i know i'm not FUGLY, i'm not drop dead goregeous either, but i mean damn. I'll quit bitching about my lack of guys. I'm also depressed because it's like every time i turn around ...shit is going wrong. I'm only getting 986 dollars on the unsubsidied, because well i'm still a DEPENDENT student...i can't wait until next semester, i'll finally , actually a fucking year from now! FUCK YOU FEDERAL GOVERNMENT. I Hope that fucker at the golden chick calls me back, i need a job, and i hope the state of TExas decides to give me some unemployment checks...cuz um yeah, shits been hella fied tight. I seriously want to call my ex and cus him out , and then get cursed back and talked bad about..then i'll hang up and feel even more depressed. But that fucker really did not GIVE A FUCK about me, he never even loved me, and he lied, over and over and over again, and i took it, and LOVED him, did so much shit for him, and he leave me with NOTHING, which later manifested it self in the current troubles i'm going through. Fact is i'd still have that job if i had MY FUCKING CAR HE TOTALED! AND FUCK MY DAD, for not helping out, ugh. I dunno, i'm going to go walk to the boiler room tonight and rip rocks to go see Sol kitchen, i love those guys(band) even tho i don't know them personally...hopefully i can change that, i need some bassination.