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So im listening to hellogoodbye and i was just thinking how the song "here in your arms" makes me so incredibly sad, thats because when i first heard the song i had just met mr. fendle, which is weird cause that was two years ago but the song describes exactly how i feel about him right now.. and i honestly dont know what to do, i feel like i've lost him for good which makes me incredibly sad. It's funny when i first met him, i thought to myself.. i could see me spending the rest of my life with him.. which is fucking nuts cause i didnt even know him, he was just the fine ass manager i couldnt stop thinking about. and then one night he kissed me, and thats when i fell, and i fell hard.. well he moved to london so we did the long distance thing, and then he came back and we barely talked, yet now all these feelings have come back, i miss him terribly but i dont think he wants to talk to me. it's like it took me two years to realize that im in love with him. damn i miss his smile, and his pretty eyes, and his dark hair.. ugh. im a mess. why can't i stop thinking about him? but i guess everything happpens for a reason.. and there had better be a damn good reason why im not with him. I mean he's perfect and i blew it. im such an idiot.