May 10, 2006 10:43
Something is wrong with me. Seriously. Okay, here it is: I don't feel an urge to get drunk and stupid and go to big parties with stupid people anymore. I know I know! What the hell? I think I am doing this thing...ah fuck what is it called...oh yes, growing up. I always just pictured myself as this person who would be crazy and wild in college, but the thing is, I go to parties like that and just get bored. You can only dance on a table to 50 cent so many times, ya know? I mean I guess I have been partying for like 5 years, so I have had my fun. I just feel the most happy cuddling up watching movies or travelling, or just hanging out with friends. I mean I still enjoy drinking and all, but not in the college woohoo way.
Plus, I am becoming a total news junkie which is terrible! But between this community journalism class and all this african stuff I am actually getting educated and it just makes me really sick. It does. And now I am getting all these outlets to be involved in the community that I actually might make a well rounded person out of myself, who knew.
Somedays I feel older than nineteen. Aren't I supposed to still enjoy puking in someone's backyard? Then I think about my life that I have lived. I never really had much of a chance to be a kid so I guess I was destined all along. I have been independant and self sufficient my whole life. I never seemed to grow out of that toddler phase, "I can do it myself!" But what are you gonna do. Appreciate what you got. Move with the tide. Alright.