Morning Insight with Amy
Ya know I woke up this morning with a killer headache that I've pretty much had for a week and the usual stomach ache and all things aside I couldn't help feeing grateful. We throw our blessings around so much in this country and focus on the most petty things in hope of somehow making it seem like our lives are so painful or something. It is like Mathew Lillard in SLC Punk said, "Americans are addicted to pain." (Thank you Dana for that insight).
Well today I am not going to be addicted to pain. I just feel so full of joy to have this life, this opportunity. Last night I dreamt of my babies at my work all night long. It is funny cuz during the day I was bitching about going to work and how tired I was and stressed and blah blah blah. But then I think about how many people are lucky enough to get paid to hold beautiful little creatures in their arms and rock them to sleep and watch them make their cute little baby cues. As tiring as my job can be it is so rewarding. I love those kids so much.
I feel like I have so much to do everyday, but I remember that yes that is my fault for biting off more than I can chew. But more than that, shit, I should just feel happy that I am allowed to go to school and work. I am allowed to leave the house without a black veil covering my face!
Not to mention I have this amazing boyfriend who would drop anything to come be with me and I don't nearly appreciate his wonderfulness enough. Sometimes I get scared to feel good. I feel trained to complain. But Andrew, I love you and I think you are amazing.
So that is my morning epiphany over coffee and sunlight. I love you all, I weally weally doo.
Well today I am not going to be addicted to pain. I just feel so full of joy to have this life, this opportunity. Last night I dreamt of my babies at my work all night long. It is funny cuz during the day I was bitching about going to work and how tired I was and stressed and blah blah blah. But then I think about how many people are lucky enough to get paid to hold beautiful little creatures in their arms and rock them to sleep and watch them make their cute little baby cues. As tiring as my job can be it is so rewarding. I love those kids so much.
I feel like I have so much to do everyday, but I remember that yes that is my fault for biting off more than I can chew. But more than that, shit, I should just feel happy that I am allowed to go to school and work. I am allowed to leave the house without a black veil covering my face!
Not to mention I have this amazing boyfriend who would drop anything to come be with me and I don't nearly appreciate his wonderfulness enough. Sometimes I get scared to feel good. I feel trained to complain. But Andrew, I love you and I think you are amazing.
So that is my morning epiphany over coffee and sunlight. I love you all, I weally weally doo.