Yay self destruction

[amywannamocha]

I am sick to my stomach.
Pepto bismol and sitting in the shower.
Tossing in my mother's bed,
I can smell her and it makes me sad.
Sad to be old and alone.
I am afraid I won't ever be happy
Because I don't know how to be.
My head is killing me.
I want to sleep
But I'm too tired.
So I'm standing on the edge
Looking down at my fate
And it is looking pretty grim

No alcohol tonight....bleh.