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My beloved kitty Pumpkin passed away. I just came home and she was just lying there just as I left her when I went to work only a few hours before and went to pet her and she was stiff. At least she went in her sleep peacefully. I think she may have had a stroke or a blood clot in her head or something. But I am immensly sad, I miss my kitty and I just want her to be here and ok and purr for me again. I love my animals, ive always loved my animals more than people. She was ill off and on, then her last days she was so lethargic all she did was sleep for 3 days straight, didnt eat, she drank her water, but she couldnt even stand and just collapsed on her bowl, her left eye was bloodshot like she had a broken bloodvessel. Im $200 negative in the bank, I was so scared for my darling i wanted so desperately to bring her into an emergency pet hospital but every single place I called needed money I didnt have upfront and refused to see us unless I had money right then and there. I was told multiple times apply for online credit but I was not approved and was told I could try again with a co applicant I dont have. I was going to bring her to the vet after i came back from work, I was told it was cheaper than the er, and her eye looked like it was getting better and she was purring alot so I was starting to feel a little less scared for her and I was so ready to steal money from someone if I had to. I just wasnt ready for her to leave me. I miss her so much. She never got to meet Caden. I dont even know what to do with her body, I put her in her cat carrier and put her on the balcony in a trashbag so the bugs wouldnt get to her. I want to go get her a necropsy and have her creamated, but the earliest I can be seen Is mon, I still have no money until wedsnesday, so she has to decay on my balcony. RIP my sweet angel kitten.