Been A Long Time
Man, it's almost been a year since I update on this journal. My other one, I don't know... I just am so sick of looking at the layout. It's too dreary.
Joe's heading to Florida in like less than a month. I'm physically ill by it all. I can't eat hardly anything, everyone's getting on me about dropping so much weight so fast. They put me on Prevacid for my hernia (my hernia always says a giant "HOWDY!" when I'm upset and stressed) & GERD but I haven't taken any yet. I think GERD is a great name for acid reflux disease. GERD.
I had to take my new neighbor Jen to the ER last night for her panic attacks. Of course they treated her like crap as this hospital always does when people have PA's. We came back here after a small drive around and fell asleep in my bed. I haven't slept in my own bed for over a year. And man, does she snore. But then Joe came in to "make sure we weren't doing any lesbian stuff". GERD. And check this shiznit out. He thinks that while he's in FL that Jen and I will be "lesbian lovers" when he comes back. GERD.
For one, I have never partaken in any lesbianeque experiences but once and that was with Amanda. Reason being: we were at a bar and these 2 guys would NOT stop asking me out. I wasn't interested in meeting guys, I was just having a White Russian and out with my friend. Amanda and I have always had this thing that when we look at eachother, we know what the other is thinking. So she's like, "Lesbians?" I said, "Yep." And we kissed just a semi-short kiss. (She IS a good kisser) But that is the only time I have EVER kissed another girl and it was to get these guys to leave me alone.
Of course after that they were more turned on than anything so I invited them to step outside or take them out right then and there. That got rid of the problem.
I miss Amanda. Ever since she had that restraining order put on Joe for threatening to kill her, I feel kind of empty. He really scared her but the thing is, Joe has no recollection of ANYTHING he said to her because he just woke up and went off on her. That's before he got counseling, or during, whatever.
Beth is sooooooooooooooooo jealous of my friendship with Jen. I don't know why, nothing is different. Jen and I just click better in areas that we know best and that tends to be the "streets" area. And the freaky parents that we grew up with. Got a lot in common there except her step-dad was the one abusing her whereas all my avid readers know that it was my mother abusing me.
Speaking of mother, she's par-taying at country bars. Yeah, COUNTRY bars. I don't know what she's thinking. Ok, she doesn't think but country bars? What is she expecting to find at a bar, a real man? If she finds one, she'll just make him stop going to the bars and drinking and then he'll get sick of her and divorce her too. Boo diddly hoo.
I just think the whole mess is funny. My mother all prissy and fake sitting with that psychotic smile and insane gleam in her yellow eyes at a country bar. And when a man, should he dare approach the female anti-Christ, here's the "Hiiiii !!!", you would think he would run far far away. Maybe my mother has a pimp. Hard telling, the woman will do anything for money.
Me? I sit here and save every buck I can for my addiction to pills. :)
Anyway, I set it up for when Joe heads to FL that I would have an appt. every day with Dawn and when she can't do it on Thurs/Fri., Sunshine Connie will hopefully be able to do it. Need to call her. Ok done.
Welp, I'm bored.
Joe's heading to Florida in like less than a month. I'm physically ill by it all. I can't eat hardly anything, everyone's getting on me about dropping so much weight so fast. They put me on Prevacid for my hernia (my hernia always says a giant "HOWDY!" when I'm upset and stressed) & GERD but I haven't taken any yet. I think GERD is a great name for acid reflux disease. GERD.
I had to take my new neighbor Jen to the ER last night for her panic attacks. Of course they treated her like crap as this hospital always does when people have PA's. We came back here after a small drive around and fell asleep in my bed. I haven't slept in my own bed for over a year. And man, does she snore. But then Joe came in to "make sure we weren't doing any lesbian stuff". GERD. And check this shiznit out. He thinks that while he's in FL that Jen and I will be "lesbian lovers" when he comes back. GERD.
For one, I have never partaken in any lesbianeque experiences but once and that was with Amanda. Reason being: we were at a bar and these 2 guys would NOT stop asking me out. I wasn't interested in meeting guys, I was just having a White Russian and out with my friend. Amanda and I have always had this thing that when we look at eachother, we know what the other is thinking. So she's like, "Lesbians?" I said, "Yep." And we kissed just a semi-short kiss. (She IS a good kisser) But that is the only time I have EVER kissed another girl and it was to get these guys to leave me alone.
Of course after that they were more turned on than anything so I invited them to step outside or take them out right then and there. That got rid of the problem.
I miss Amanda. Ever since she had that restraining order put on Joe for threatening to kill her, I feel kind of empty. He really scared her but the thing is, Joe has no recollection of ANYTHING he said to her because he just woke up and went off on her. That's before he got counseling, or during, whatever.
Beth is sooooooooooooooooo jealous of my friendship with Jen. I don't know why, nothing is different. Jen and I just click better in areas that we know best and that tends to be the "streets" area. And the freaky parents that we grew up with. Got a lot in common there except her step-dad was the one abusing her whereas all my avid readers know that it was my mother abusing me.
Speaking of mother, she's par-taying at country bars. Yeah, COUNTRY bars. I don't know what she's thinking. Ok, she doesn't think but country bars? What is she expecting to find at a bar, a real man? If she finds one, she'll just make him stop going to the bars and drinking and then he'll get sick of her and divorce her too. Boo diddly hoo.
I just think the whole mess is funny. My mother all prissy and fake sitting with that psychotic smile and insane gleam in her yellow eyes at a country bar. And when a man, should he dare approach the female anti-Christ, here's the "Hiiiii !!!", you would think he would run far far away. Maybe my mother has a pimp. Hard telling, the woman will do anything for money.
Me? I sit here and save every buck I can for my addiction to pills. :)
Anyway, I set it up for when Joe heads to FL that I would have an appt. every day with Dawn and when she can't do it on Thurs/Fri., Sunshine Connie will hopefully be able to do it. Need to call her. Ok done.
Welp, I'm bored.