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Joe and I are both feeling much better today. We were actually able to laugh and as long as I keep busy and not think about it, I'm fine. Haven't taken any extr-y horkins or anything so that's good.
Yesterday before it happened, I spent about 3 hours mastering "In Da Club" (props up to 50 Cent) and luckily I was smart enough to save the instrumental so I free styled to that. It is HILARIOUS! Took me 10 takes but hey, I'm not a rapper.
I'll miss reading about Abby. But I understand that she doesn't like me, she's very private and would probably love for me to be dead or at least living overseas in Iraq. Ah well, she gave me enough stress as it was and I gave it right back to her so it's for the best that no one knows what's going on b/c honestly, after everything she's said to me without logical reasoning, I don't care. She's just been spoon fed a bunch of cover ups from the teet.
I think Beth and I will head up to Kratzer's tomorrow with Hannah and grab some ice cream or something. My goal plan is to at least get out once a week and since Beth drives fast, I trust her. :)
She has honestly been my sanity during all of the death that has descended upon this house. I've been very fortunate that up until now I haven't had to deal with losing such a beloved baby or family member.
So you can imagine how shocked and sad and angry I was. It's just natural to feel that way. As Sis would say, "They're called emotions. They are there for a reason. Allow yourself to have emotions." Next step is acceptance.
What I'm doing now is just concentrating on the house, the babies and my family. Joe, of course, is included in that.
He got groceries today and paid the telephone bill. *whew* It was SOOOOOOOO FUNNY because he's hands me 4 blocks of cheese and said, "See ya Tuesday." hehee It's love when someone will spend their own money on their girlfriends cheese addiction. :)
What is helping me through this rough time is, as we know it in the pet and rescue world, Rainbow Bridge. It's a very old Native American belief and honestly, it helps so much.
http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm
Don't read it if you can't handle it.
Yesterday before it happened, I spent about 3 hours mastering "In Da Club" (props up to 50 Cent) and luckily I was smart enough to save the instrumental so I free styled to that. It is HILARIOUS! Took me 10 takes but hey, I'm not a rapper.
I'll miss reading about Abby. But I understand that she doesn't like me, she's very private and would probably love for me to be dead or at least living overseas in Iraq. Ah well, she gave me enough stress as it was and I gave it right back to her so it's for the best that no one knows what's going on b/c honestly, after everything she's said to me without logical reasoning, I don't care. She's just been spoon fed a bunch of cover ups from the teet.
I think Beth and I will head up to Kratzer's tomorrow with Hannah and grab some ice cream or something. My goal plan is to at least get out once a week and since Beth drives fast, I trust her. :)
She has honestly been my sanity during all of the death that has descended upon this house. I've been very fortunate that up until now I haven't had to deal with losing such a beloved baby or family member.
So you can imagine how shocked and sad and angry I was. It's just natural to feel that way. As Sis would say, "They're called emotions. They are there for a reason. Allow yourself to have emotions." Next step is acceptance.
What I'm doing now is just concentrating on the house, the babies and my family. Joe, of course, is included in that.
He got groceries today and paid the telephone bill. *whew* It was SOOOOOOOO FUNNY because he's hands me 4 blocks of cheese and said, "See ya Tuesday." hehee It's love when someone will spend their own money on their girlfriends cheese addiction. :)
What is helping me through this rough time is, as we know it in the pet and rescue world, Rainbow Bridge. It's a very old Native American belief and honestly, it helps so much.
http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm
Don't read it if you can't handle it.