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I'm not in a real good place right now. So tired (really have to stop staying up all night reading on the computer). I've caught Ian's cold but I have to go to work tomorrow no matter what. I am so broke (I have about $19 until Fri) and I'm worried about Christmas.
I tell myself I get like this every year. I have no credit so I have to do Christmas all in cash. Which always means waiting until the paycheck right before Christmas and doing everything. THis year that means the 23rd. I'm sure that will be fine, it's just scary. I have to pay the babysitter for this week, 1 week as a christmas gift and for the week after when Ian is away. Then every other penny can go for Christmas Cheer. I thought I had all of Ian's presents bought but I wrapped them today and it does not look like enough. Of course I think that every year. We can't get the tree until Friday and I'm afraid I won't be able to find one (I know it's ridiculous). I don't know where I will get it or how I will get it home. I can't ask Chris for a ride. My big plan is to buy a smallish tree (5ft) at the lot at 5th ave and Flatbush and bring it home on the subway. Does anyone think that will work?
We spent the weekend pretty much alone and quiet. We made gingerbread girls and boys yesterday. They're pretty much inedible but it was fun. Ian's still sick so a quiet weekend went over well. Jen and Chris called this morning and asked to see him. He said he had a nice time with no fights.
I guess I'm just depressed (the NYQUIL doesn't help that), maybe I'll try going to bed.
I tell myself I get like this every year. I have no credit so I have to do Christmas all in cash. Which always means waiting until the paycheck right before Christmas and doing everything. THis year that means the 23rd. I'm sure that will be fine, it's just scary. I have to pay the babysitter for this week, 1 week as a christmas gift and for the week after when Ian is away. Then every other penny can go for Christmas Cheer. I thought I had all of Ian's presents bought but I wrapped them today and it does not look like enough. Of course I think that every year. We can't get the tree until Friday and I'm afraid I won't be able to find one (I know it's ridiculous). I don't know where I will get it or how I will get it home. I can't ask Chris for a ride. My big plan is to buy a smallish tree (5ft) at the lot at 5th ave and Flatbush and bring it home on the subway. Does anyone think that will work?
We spent the weekend pretty much alone and quiet. We made gingerbread girls and boys yesterday. They're pretty much inedible but it was fun. Ian's still sick so a quiet weekend went over well. Jen and Chris called this morning and asked to see him. He said he had a nice time with no fights.
I guess I'm just depressed (the NYQUIL doesn't help that), maybe I'll try going to bed.