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Why does life suck so much sometimes? I hate the way that I get my hopes up about something...and then it just all comes crashing down in a matter of seconds. I'm just going to say whats been going on in my life these past couple of weeks..nothing serious.
Okay, well I went to preschool-3rd grade(he moved) with this guy Billy Culver. Me and him were best friends. Alright..so last monday..the 10th..my friend Tara comes up to me and was like "OMG Amy, guess what?! I saw Billy Culver the other day!!"..Appearantly they knew each other too and had the "biggest crush" on each other..And so in Advisory, she gave me his number, and I texted him and was like "hey Billy, idk if you remember me but this is Amy..."...later that night he called me and we talked for like 30 minutes..it was all good and everything..I mean its not everday that your childhood best friend comes back into your life, ya know? So then on Tuesday, me and him talked for like 2 hours...I don't think I really liked him, but I just looked forward to talking to him, ya know? So I called him Wed. night at like 11, and he didn't answer..so I called back about 20 minutes later, and his phone was off..so I was like..okay, that's weird but whatever...so on Thursday morning, Tara comes up to me and was like "you don't like Billy do you?" and I was like "no, why??" and she just kinda looked away..and I was like "...do yall like each other?" and she just nodded her head..and she was like "yeah, he sneaked into my room last night.." and I was like "oh thats cool.." and I noticed a hickie on her neck..and was like.."did he give you that" and she was like yeah...so I was like oh..ok. ERR...it sucked.. Like I said..I don't think I liked him..but who knows..me and Billy haven't talked since last Tuesday night..it sucks..because I was so excited to have him back in my life, and now its like...why the hell did he even come back? Why do I need this pain for? Ya know? But yeah...I think Billy and Tara are about to go out..I mean, I'm over it now..honestly..I'm used to shit like that happening to me..who cares anymore...But yeah, I don't really understand why me and Billy aren't talking anymore? I mean its like...so since him and Tara are 'talkin', me and him just can't talk as friends..like I thought we were doing? WTF? And I'm not even going to call him b/c if he doesn't answer I'm gonna feel like an idiot....=(
So yeah..next story. There's this guy Patrick..We had a class together last year, and me and him were real cool with each other. Over the summer, I made the mistake of sending him a text and saying I liked him..and me and him haven't really talked since then..So like Oct. or Nov or something, I dunno, him and this guy Jay got real high one night and ordered some wings from Wings Over Greenville, and when the dude was delivering them, they like robbed him..or something..so yeah, they got locked up..so I thought he was still in jail and everything..Well on Friday night, he texted me and was like wuts up? and I was like dude!! haha..So I called him and we were on the phone for like 45 minutes..it was great. I was happy. So I've been trying to see him all week but he's been gone...well I've been textin him and all that good stuff, and was like can you call me later tonight?(this was yesterday), and he was like you call me..so at like 10:30, I called him, and he didn't answer..and he didn't call me back..hah..great. So he was supposed to be back in Greenville today, and we were maybe gonna do something..but yeah, I didn't call him or text him today..because I just don't care anymore.
Yeah, I probably give up way too easily. Its like, every guy I meet..the first thing that goes through my head is "man, I could totally see myself with him"..instead of just thinking about being friends..it sucks..really bad. I'm tired of it..but you can't just not have those thoughts..ya know? I could totally just pick up the phone and call both of them, but I'm afraid of rejection..oh well.
Thanks for reading this...if anyone did.
Okay, well I went to preschool-3rd grade(he moved) with this guy Billy Culver. Me and him were best friends. Alright..so last monday..the 10th..my friend Tara comes up to me and was like "OMG Amy, guess what?! I saw Billy Culver the other day!!"..Appearantly they knew each other too and had the "biggest crush" on each other..And so in Advisory, she gave me his number, and I texted him and was like "hey Billy, idk if you remember me but this is Amy..."...later that night he called me and we talked for like 30 minutes..it was all good and everything..I mean its not everday that your childhood best friend comes back into your life, ya know? So then on Tuesday, me and him talked for like 2 hours...I don't think I really liked him, but I just looked forward to talking to him, ya know? So I called him Wed. night at like 11, and he didn't answer..so I called back about 20 minutes later, and his phone was off..so I was like..okay, that's weird but whatever...so on Thursday morning, Tara comes up to me and was like "you don't like Billy do you?" and I was like "no, why??" and she just kinda looked away..and I was like "...do yall like each other?" and she just nodded her head..and she was like "yeah, he sneaked into my room last night.." and I was like "oh thats cool.." and I noticed a hickie on her neck..and was like.."did he give you that" and she was like yeah...so I was like oh..ok. ERR...it sucked.. Like I said..I don't think I liked him..but who knows..me and Billy haven't talked since last Tuesday night..it sucks..because I was so excited to have him back in my life, and now its like...why the hell did he even come back? Why do I need this pain for? Ya know? But yeah...I think Billy and Tara are about to go out..I mean, I'm over it now..honestly..I'm used to shit like that happening to me..who cares anymore...But yeah, I don't really understand why me and Billy aren't talking anymore? I mean its like...so since him and Tara are 'talkin', me and him just can't talk as friends..like I thought we were doing? WTF? And I'm not even going to call him b/c if he doesn't answer I'm gonna feel like an idiot....=(
So yeah..next story. There's this guy Patrick..We had a class together last year, and me and him were real cool with each other. Over the summer, I made the mistake of sending him a text and saying I liked him..and me and him haven't really talked since then..So like Oct. or Nov or something, I dunno, him and this guy Jay got real high one night and ordered some wings from Wings Over Greenville, and when the dude was delivering them, they like robbed him..or something..so yeah, they got locked up..so I thought he was still in jail and everything..Well on Friday night, he texted me and was like wuts up? and I was like dude!! haha..So I called him and we were on the phone for like 45 minutes..it was great. I was happy. So I've been trying to see him all week but he's been gone...well I've been textin him and all that good stuff, and was like can you call me later tonight?(this was yesterday), and he was like you call me..so at like 10:30, I called him, and he didn't answer..and he didn't call me back..hah..great. So he was supposed to be back in Greenville today, and we were maybe gonna do something..but yeah, I didn't call him or text him today..because I just don't care anymore.
Yeah, I probably give up way too easily. Its like, every guy I meet..the first thing that goes through my head is "man, I could totally see myself with him"..instead of just thinking about being friends..it sucks..really bad. I'm tired of it..but you can't just not have those thoughts..ya know? I could totally just pick up the phone and call both of them, but I'm afraid of rejection..oh well.
Thanks for reading this...if anyone did.