a serious entry. bah bah bah.
what a ridiculous night. so so frustrating on so many levels. and my stomach is rebelling; there is a nuclear civil war in my belly. gah gah. damn excessive amounts of junk food and caffeine!
my dad got married this weekend. mom isn't taking it too well. lord knows what i'm supposed to do about that. but of course mom decides to unload on cassidy and i anyways. i just sat there awkwardly on the floor while she cried and complained about her life. i know that my mom has been through a lot, but so have a million bazillion other people. in fact, they've been through worse. life is hard and often terrible; and it has certainly been that way for my mom sometimes. but at least she's alive, and her children are alive (and healthy), and she isn't living in war torn africa nor surviving the holocaust. yes, her divorce was sad and terrible, but at least she gets a lot of alimony and it could be worse; it can always be worse. i just want her to be happy and i'm frustrated because she is sooo far from attaining happiness. she has to somehow realize that life is what she makes of it and that she has the strength and power to make life as wonderful and amazing as she wants it to be. but how do you tell your mother that? i tried to tonight. i tried to tell her that she should just sell the house and move so she can see how wide the world is and realize that she can go ANYWHERE and do ANYTHING. but she cut me off and said something ridiculous.
bah. i have to get up in 6 and a half hours and then be a slave to the democratic national committee for probably ten hours. such is life. honestly, i love my job and don't mind devoting so much time to it. i just miss my friends sometimes and it can be a little overwhelming at times like these when i have something on my mind. but i sound negative. i'm really having a wonderful summer. i honestly have so much to be happy about.
something to be happy about: discovering beautiful tennyson poems in my british lit book from spring quarter. here is one of them:
The Splendor Falls
The splendor falls on castle walls
And snowy summits old in story;
The long light shakes across the lakes,
And the wild cataract leaps in glory.
Blow, bugle, blow, set the wild echoes flying,
Blow, bugle; answer, echoes, dying, dying, dying.
O, hark, O, hear! how thin and clear,
And thinner, clearer, farther going!
O, sweet and far from cliff and scar
The horns of Elfland faintly blowing!
Blow, let us hear the purple glens replying,
Blow, bugle; answer, echoes, dying, dying, dying.
O love, they die in yon rich sky,
They faint on hill or field or river;
Our echoes roll from soul to soul,
And grow forever and forever.
Blow, bugle, blow, set the wild echoes flying,
And answer, echoes, answer, dying, dying, dying.
my dad got married this weekend. mom isn't taking it too well. lord knows what i'm supposed to do about that. but of course mom decides to unload on cassidy and i anyways. i just sat there awkwardly on the floor while she cried and complained about her life. i know that my mom has been through a lot, but so have a million bazillion other people. in fact, they've been through worse. life is hard and often terrible; and it has certainly been that way for my mom sometimes. but at least she's alive, and her children are alive (and healthy), and she isn't living in war torn africa nor surviving the holocaust. yes, her divorce was sad and terrible, but at least she gets a lot of alimony and it could be worse; it can always be worse. i just want her to be happy and i'm frustrated because she is sooo far from attaining happiness. she has to somehow realize that life is what she makes of it and that she has the strength and power to make life as wonderful and amazing as she wants it to be. but how do you tell your mother that? i tried to tonight. i tried to tell her that she should just sell the house and move so she can see how wide the world is and realize that she can go ANYWHERE and do ANYTHING. but she cut me off and said something ridiculous.
bah. i have to get up in 6 and a half hours and then be a slave to the democratic national committee for probably ten hours. such is life. honestly, i love my job and don't mind devoting so much time to it. i just miss my friends sometimes and it can be a little overwhelming at times like these when i have something on my mind. but i sound negative. i'm really having a wonderful summer. i honestly have so much to be happy about.
something to be happy about: discovering beautiful tennyson poems in my british lit book from spring quarter. here is one of them:
The Splendor Falls
The splendor falls on castle walls
And snowy summits old in story;
The long light shakes across the lakes,
And the wild cataract leaps in glory.
Blow, bugle, blow, set the wild echoes flying,
Blow, bugle; answer, echoes, dying, dying, dying.
O, hark, O, hear! how thin and clear,
And thinner, clearer, farther going!
O, sweet and far from cliff and scar
The horns of Elfland faintly blowing!
Blow, let us hear the purple glens replying,
Blow, bugle; answer, echoes, dying, dying, dying.
O love, they die in yon rich sky,
They faint on hill or field or river;
Our echoes roll from soul to soul,
And grow forever and forever.
Blow, bugle, blow, set the wild echoes flying,
And answer, echoes, answer, dying, dying, dying.