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Can't focus.
I seem to fall into the same trend week after week, year after year. Being busy until exhaustion for one day, or a set of days, and then having no energy for the rest of the week. And I would be fine with that, as long as I stay active I can keep pushing through. But what really pisses me off is when I get to the time I've set aside to catch up on HW or something of the sort, and I can't even seem to find the energy to focus my mind to write some god damn papers.
lol Really, I actually want to do my homework, I find it all intresting. And I want to learn. I'm just too tired to think about it right now. It'll be done as soon as I can synchronize my 'free time' with energy. (this actually kind of reminds me of peter parker in spider-man 2)
I don't think that would fly with my teachers. But its how I feel.
Does anyone else associate with this? Find anything that helps?
Maybe some more chai tea. lol
Anyways, as I'm sitting here at Online Coffee off boardway in Seattle, trying to do homework, I obviously ended up on LJ.
When I went to post an entry, I discovered I had already started one! Its from August when I was still in SF dancing....
"I can't wait for this next school year.
Its the night before my last day at the SF Conservatory of Dance. I can't believe four weeks have already gone by. It seems like just last week I was meeting my roommate Erika for the first time."
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I wish i had finished it. I'm really curious about what I had to say about my experience.
And as for being excited for the coming school year. I'm in the lion's den of it, trying not to be eaten alive. =]
It's hard. But good. I'm growing (not taller, just to clarify). And I'm trying to learn. Learn to be patient with myself , that there is always time even if it doesn't feel that way, and that everything will be okay despite what my anxiety tells me.
Which I guess brings me full circle to my present problem of homework. Be patient, there is time, and everything will be okay. Like I said, I'm still learning. I just have to remind myself sometimes.
Going to get some tea now.
Bye until later
Amy J