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I crossed paths with Richie today in the mall. I know it's inevitable that I will run into him on occasion, but it still catches me off guard every time. I know he has family here and all so it's not that unlikely that I run into him, but when I run into him like that I feel like I've just had the breath knocked out of me. How can one person have such a drastic affect on another without a care at all?...Without even having a clue? I'll get over it eventually, or I'll die trying.
Tammy decided she was gonna try and play matchmaker at work today. I mentioned that one of the guys who works for Loomis is a cutie and I hoped he came inside today, so when he did indeed come inside Tammy proceeds to ask him if he had a girlfriend (He had mentioned once before that he and his girlfriend had just bought a house together). His response was why? who wants to know? And I was just sitting there looking everywhere but in his direction because I was 5 shades of red with embarassment. He asked does somebody have a crush on me? And then said that he wasn't tied down and he didn't have a ring on his finger. I was so embarrassed, but I think he was flattered. I really hope Tammy doesn't decide to ask any of the other many guys who I think are cute if they have girlfriends. I just embarrass so easily! I think it might be that I'm actually scared of dating anyone right now. On one hand I'm lonely and a companion would be nice, but on the other hand I'm just so afraid to put myself out there and risk being rejected or getting hurt again. I think the best thing for me right now is to focus on me. Everything has been falling into place so perfectly here lately, and my prince charming will fall into place when the time is right, too.
I met a new friend this evenin. She's staying down the hall just for this session. She came over because the cable was out and she was trying to figure out what was going on. We ended up talking for like an hour. She's a senior and she's really nice. Maybe we'll hang out sometime soon.
Tammy decided she was gonna try and play matchmaker at work today. I mentioned that one of the guys who works for Loomis is a cutie and I hoped he came inside today, so when he did indeed come inside Tammy proceeds to ask him if he had a girlfriend (He had mentioned once before that he and his girlfriend had just bought a house together). His response was why? who wants to know? And I was just sitting there looking everywhere but in his direction because I was 5 shades of red with embarassment. He asked does somebody have a crush on me? And then said that he wasn't tied down and he didn't have a ring on his finger. I was so embarrassed, but I think he was flattered. I really hope Tammy doesn't decide to ask any of the other many guys who I think are cute if they have girlfriends. I just embarrass so easily! I think it might be that I'm actually scared of dating anyone right now. On one hand I'm lonely and a companion would be nice, but on the other hand I'm just so afraid to put myself out there and risk being rejected or getting hurt again. I think the best thing for me right now is to focus on me. Everything has been falling into place so perfectly here lately, and my prince charming will fall into place when the time is right, too.
I met a new friend this evenin. She's staying down the hall just for this session. She came over because the cable was out and she was trying to figure out what was going on. We ended up talking for like an hour. She's a senior and she's really nice. Maybe we'll hang out sometime soon.