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Driving home from work today in my mom's car I thought about how much she really means to me. She's sacrificed so much for me, and I'd be lost without her. Whenever I hate myself and wish I were never born, I think of her and how different her life would be if I hadn't. She'd have so much more for herself, but it wouldn't mean half as much as I mean to her. If anything happened to me, she'd be devastated. I know I disappointed her by withdrawing from school because she wants so much more for me than she has been able to provide, but that's not what I want. I become more like her everyday and she sees that as a bad thing because she's so hard on herself. But if I could be anyone in the world I'd wanna be just like her. She's one of the most gentle, giving, compassionate, and loving people I have ever known. I hate to disappoint her, and I know I do, but I don't want the rich suburban lifestyle. All the money in the world couldn't make me as happy as my friends and family, and that's all I really want.
Christy didn't hear from the credit union today so I got my mom to call the manager because she knows her. She told her that they haven't filled the position yet, so hopefully they will call Christy tomorrow. She's been really sad all day because she thinks she's not gonna get the job. Chances of rain for Saturday are 30%, so maybe we will get to the creek then if the weather holds out. Hurricane Dennis is supposed to come through on Monday. I hope he doesn't cause much damage.
I'm still procrastinatiing on cleaning my room! As soon as I finish this I'm going to make a playlist to listen to while I clean, and then I'm gonna get to work...for real this time!!!
Christy didn't hear from the credit union today so I got my mom to call the manager because she knows her. She told her that they haven't filled the position yet, so hopefully they will call Christy tomorrow. She's been really sad all day because she thinks she's not gonna get the job. Chances of rain for Saturday are 30%, so maybe we will get to the creek then if the weather holds out. Hurricane Dennis is supposed to come through on Monday. I hope he doesn't cause much damage.
I'm still procrastinatiing on cleaning my room! As soon as I finish this I'm going to make a playlist to listen to while I clean, and then I'm gonna get to work...for real this time!!!