Well.. after 5 years... IM BACCCCCK!
So Shea and I were talking earlier.. and I made a comment about how I wanted to start a blog. Then we decided to go find our old livejournals.. and after that we decided to start them back up!
Reading all these old entries are weird. It actually makes me appreciate my life more today and not miss the past so much. I never seemed happy or content with life... I constantly wanted to escape and I guess its a good thing I finally did. All my moving and leaving NSB has taught me a lot and I think made me overall a stronger person. I was constantly looking for something that made me happy.. when it was probably a lot closer to me then I thought. I also do not miss long distance relationships...
Anyways-- I really enjoyed going back and reading! I feel like I was reading about a different person and not myself. It's weird how much things can change. So I want to keep writing so in another 5 years I can compare life again!
Life is so different now-- for all of us! I cant believe its been about 5 years since we graduated high school.. MAn how time flies! Now most of us are married & have kids!!!
Reading this made me realize how blessed I truly am. I don't miss all this petty drama and being depressed about nothing. Life was so easy back then and I dont understand how I ever thought of it as complicated!? And everything that I longed for in all my old posts and everything that I kept *wishing* to happen in the future has pretty much happened.. and its amazing to realize that. I think its good that I decided to re-read this! No more credit card/money problems, no more drama, no more issues with friends, etc...
Of course life isnt stress free now-- it still is! More then ever! But it seems more real.. or like its stuff worth to be stressed about? Such as trying to find a babysitter, trying to find time to write a paper, trying to get Todd to do more around the house, etc. Then again--who knows? Maybe in 5 years I will look at posts venting about how Todd would rather sit on the couch and vegetate then change a diaper and that wont even seem like a big deal?
Dont get me wrong. I am thankful for the past and all my memories of it! They are the reason I am who I am today! I feel lucky to have had the "traditional' high school life, and many years of the 'traditional' college life. I am glad I got to experience living with roommates, going away to college, prom, etc. I think if I didnt have all that I would regret it.
And even now-- I have everything I have longed for-- one of the cutest little boys in the entire world.. my own place... an amazing fiance... this is what I dreamed of. I am also planning the wedding of my dreams..another thing I have been so excited for! And its less then 53 days away! I get to have my BEST friends up there with me as my bridesmaids-- and my other half as my matron of honor! I dont think many people have their best friends from high school up there with them.. and I feel very blessed to still be good friends with them! :)
Shea and I were also discussing after reading and comparing many of our old entries that we always complain about how we wish I still lived in Florida and closer and how much we miss each other-- but since high school graduation we have only become closer-- and right now we are probally the closest we haev ever been in our whole 10+ years of friendship!
Moving on--
Wedding planning is going good! Still have a few details to work out but its all coming together and I am starting to get very excited!!!! We just started doing some bachelorette party planning and I am realllly excited for that~ I think it will be good times!
We went to Todd's company party last night-- it was about an hour and a half way in New Brunswick, Nj! It's expensive to go out when u have to pay a babysitter! lol We gave her $100 bucks to come take care of C! It was a good time though-- open bar too! Since I got to drink all the times we went out in Florida Todd drank this time and I was the DD! He had ALOT to drink too! And even woke up with Connor today to let me sleep in until 9:30!!!! Whoo hoo!
Connor is doing good! He's almost 8 months.. I cant believe it! Feels like only yesterday I was prego. It really does fly by! He isnt crawling yet though :( When he is ready he will! :) He recently learned how to feed himself finger foods and is getting really good at it! I can't believe in about 4 months he will be celebrating his first birthday. I need to start planning! :) I love party planning... haha
Todd and I started a pact to goto the gym everyday. Of course he is napping right now and already breaking it on the 2nd day.. so I think im about to go without him! We are trying to get in shape for our wedding.. no cardio of course! Just weight training to put on some muscle! I am really sore from yesterday.
Tonight on lifetime I want to watch the pregnancy pact movie. I think I am going to skip DH and watch that instead. I can always watch DH online tomorrow! :) ((We are too cheap to get DVR or Tivo))
Well-- I hope to continue to write in this! :) I feel this is pretty good for my first update! Now I jsut need to figure out how to redo the background, etc!
Love, Amy.
Reading all these old entries are weird. It actually makes me appreciate my life more today and not miss the past so much. I never seemed happy or content with life... I constantly wanted to escape and I guess its a good thing I finally did. All my moving and leaving NSB has taught me a lot and I think made me overall a stronger person. I was constantly looking for something that made me happy.. when it was probably a lot closer to me then I thought. I also do not miss long distance relationships...
Anyways-- I really enjoyed going back and reading! I feel like I was reading about a different person and not myself. It's weird how much things can change. So I want to keep writing so in another 5 years I can compare life again!
Life is so different now-- for all of us! I cant believe its been about 5 years since we graduated high school.. MAn how time flies! Now most of us are married & have kids!!!
Reading this made me realize how blessed I truly am. I don't miss all this petty drama and being depressed about nothing. Life was so easy back then and I dont understand how I ever thought of it as complicated!? And everything that I longed for in all my old posts and everything that I kept *wishing* to happen in the future has pretty much happened.. and its amazing to realize that. I think its good that I decided to re-read this! No more credit card/money problems, no more drama, no more issues with friends, etc...
Of course life isnt stress free now-- it still is! More then ever! But it seems more real.. or like its stuff worth to be stressed about? Such as trying to find a babysitter, trying to find time to write a paper, trying to get Todd to do more around the house, etc. Then again--who knows? Maybe in 5 years I will look at posts venting about how Todd would rather sit on the couch and vegetate then change a diaper and that wont even seem like a big deal?
Dont get me wrong. I am thankful for the past and all my memories of it! They are the reason I am who I am today! I feel lucky to have had the "traditional' high school life, and many years of the 'traditional' college life. I am glad I got to experience living with roommates, going away to college, prom, etc. I think if I didnt have all that I would regret it.
And even now-- I have everything I have longed for-- one of the cutest little boys in the entire world.. my own place... an amazing fiance... this is what I dreamed of. I am also planning the wedding of my dreams..another thing I have been so excited for! And its less then 53 days away! I get to have my BEST friends up there with me as my bridesmaids-- and my other half as my matron of honor! I dont think many people have their best friends from high school up there with them.. and I feel very blessed to still be good friends with them! :)
Shea and I were also discussing after reading and comparing many of our old entries that we always complain about how we wish I still lived in Florida and closer and how much we miss each other-- but since high school graduation we have only become closer-- and right now we are probally the closest we haev ever been in our whole 10+ years of friendship!
Moving on--
Wedding planning is going good! Still have a few details to work out but its all coming together and I am starting to get very excited!!!! We just started doing some bachelorette party planning and I am realllly excited for that~ I think it will be good times!
We went to Todd's company party last night-- it was about an hour and a half way in New Brunswick, Nj! It's expensive to go out when u have to pay a babysitter! lol We gave her $100 bucks to come take care of C! It was a good time though-- open bar too! Since I got to drink all the times we went out in Florida Todd drank this time and I was the DD! He had ALOT to drink too! And even woke up with Connor today to let me sleep in until 9:30!!!! Whoo hoo!
Connor is doing good! He's almost 8 months.. I cant believe it! Feels like only yesterday I was prego. It really does fly by! He isnt crawling yet though :( When he is ready he will! :) He recently learned how to feed himself finger foods and is getting really good at it! I can't believe in about 4 months he will be celebrating his first birthday. I need to start planning! :) I love party planning... haha
Todd and I started a pact to goto the gym everyday. Of course he is napping right now and already breaking it on the 2nd day.. so I think im about to go without him! We are trying to get in shape for our wedding.. no cardio of course! Just weight training to put on some muscle! I am really sore from yesterday.
Tonight on lifetime I want to watch the pregnancy pact movie. I think I am going to skip DH and watch that instead. I can always watch DH online tomorrow! :) ((We are too cheap to get DVR or Tivo))
Well-- I hope to continue to write in this! :) I feel this is pretty good for my first update! Now I jsut need to figure out how to redo the background, etc!
Love, Amy.