To fall in love and fall in debt
To alcohol and cigarettes and Mary Jane
To keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine
This weekend was great. It had its rough spots...arguing with Jarrod, my parents fighting and my dad taking off for a while, etc. but altogether I had a good time.
the kegger was especially fun, a lot of my friends together at once chillen andd having a good time. Well, till LB started trying to fight everyone and the pissed in Ward's bed. hahahahah too funny, I'd be so embarassed if I was him...but he was trashed and he really couldnt help it. Altough, it would have been nice if he had tried to clean it up a little better before he cut.
I also made some not so great decisions on saturday...got super drunk/high and I didnt want to sleep on the couch with a bunch of other people around me (im weird about shit like that) so I asked Jarrod if I could sleep with him and he said yes. I still have feelings for that fool, so of course being drunk I was all gung ho to spend the night with him and mess around or whatever...but the few days after dont feel as nice. Oh well, nothing I can do about it. Im trying super hard to just not feel anything at all these days...it hasn't been working so well, though. I had a little chat with Danny cuz he can sort of relate to how I feel, even though our situations aren't the same, we can identify with each other a little. and he pretty much said "Ward doesnt want you back. He loves you as a friend. All you can really do is hope for the future, but dont wait or want anymore." Super hard to hear, but true, I guess...
ive never felt like this about someone before. its a rough life.
To keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine
This weekend was great. It had its rough spots...arguing with Jarrod, my parents fighting and my dad taking off for a while, etc. but altogether I had a good time.
the kegger was especially fun, a lot of my friends together at once chillen andd having a good time. Well, till LB started trying to fight everyone and the pissed in Ward's bed. hahahahah too funny, I'd be so embarassed if I was him...but he was trashed and he really couldnt help it. Altough, it would have been nice if he had tried to clean it up a little better before he cut.
I also made some not so great decisions on saturday...got super drunk/high and I didnt want to sleep on the couch with a bunch of other people around me (im weird about shit like that) so I asked Jarrod if I could sleep with him and he said yes. I still have feelings for that fool, so of course being drunk I was all gung ho to spend the night with him and mess around or whatever...but the few days after dont feel as nice. Oh well, nothing I can do about it. Im trying super hard to just not feel anything at all these days...it hasn't been working so well, though. I had a little chat with Danny cuz he can sort of relate to how I feel, even though our situations aren't the same, we can identify with each other a little. and he pretty much said "Ward doesnt want you back. He loves you as a friend. All you can really do is hope for the future, but dont wait or want anymore." Super hard to hear, but true, I guess...
ive never felt like this about someone before. its a rough life.