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My mom had to rush my dad to the hospital yesterday morning...
I got home from going out after the show on Thursday night with some people and I got into bed at like 5:00 a.m...And I of course turned my t.v. on instead of just shutting my eyes and falling asleep...And as it was nearning 6:00 a.m I thought ok, I'll shut it off in like 2 minutes...And all of a sudden I heard my dad from the bottom of the stairs say "Gaye I think I need to go to the hospital, can you take me or should I call 911?"...So I am literally now just staring at my ceiling...Heart pounding...have no clue what the hell is going on...Because I immediately heard my mom jump outta bed and say " no no I'm coming, does it still hurt lester?"...So I'm like freaking out, but not moving cause I am like in shock. So then I hear my dad walking up the stairs saying " I'm gonna ask Amy to give me a hug goodbye" So now I'm shaking...My dad comes in my room I ask him what's going on and he says while on the verge of tears : "Can I have a hug? I love you...I hope I'm ok..." So now I'm like DAD, What the fuck is going on?! and he said that he had chest pains last night and they got worse and he doesn't know what's wrong...So now I feel like my mom is taking WAY too much time taking him, so I'm like " mom jut throw on sneakers and GO!" I got my dad some asprin because I knew that that's what the doctor said to do years ago when he had his heart attack. So he took them and by that point my mom came down stairs and they left. So I go back up to my room and call Chris cause I have no idea what to do or what's going on...I woke him up of course, and I wanted him to come here but at the same time I didn't want him to come here and miss his last STC dinner thing so I said nevermind...But he said he'd come if anything major happened and I needed him...So I hung up with him and am like shaking and frantic and don't know what to do...Obviously I'm not able to sleep. So I literally CLEAN my room spot.less. no joke...Just got up and went on like a mega straightening/cleaning spree in my room, and then I did the kitchen...I mean..I just didn't know what to do...I think I feel asleep around 8:00 from just pure exhaustion...And then my mom came home to tell me that they transfered him to the Lahey in Burlington and that they might have to perform open heart surgery...So now I'm like holy crap...She leaves...I don't know why she didn't take me with her...She told me she'd call if anything happened. She didn't call me all.day. I called Scott because I had heard her call him and tell him what happened when she came home to shower and tell me where they took him...And I told him to tell her to call me when he got to the hospital afterwork...And I guess my dad told my mom to tell me to go to Winthrop because it was opening night of Company...And I had just told him the day before how Chad said that my costumes were the best they've ever had...And it was so professional looking etc..etc...And my mom said that my dad was talking to her about it yesterday and how proud he was...So he wanted me to go. So...I did...And I felt like a shit head...Because I didnt even go to the hospital...But she assured me that everything was ok forthe time being...
Whyyyy he didn't go to the hospital the moment he felt chest pains the night before is BEYOND me...Apparently they can't do anything until monday though...He's going to have an operation on Monday..I have no idea what...It has to do with his arteries...My mom thought that maybe his Stint from his last heart attack had collapsed but the doctors said that it wasn't that and they thought it was clogged arteries...which to me was the same thing as a heart attack..but apparently it isn't...So they hooked him up t tubes and things and have been keeping his arteries open...And they couldn't operate because some random emergency came through the hospital and they had to take care of that...And then I guess doctors DON'T WORK on weekends...WHAT!?! I know! I have no clue either. How the heck to doctors not work on weekends?!!? It's beyond me. But they can't do anything until Monday UNLESS something drastic happens and it is inevitable that an on-call doctor has to perform surgery...
I really don't understand it....
And my mom left early this morning to go to the hospital and had her phone off alllll day....so rather than go to the show again tonight I opted to at least be home for when she got home so that she wouldn't be alone...I would have driven to the hospital but she didn't call me all day and I figured that she would eventually...well she did...when she LEFT...Oy...I donno...So she got home a few hours ago and we had dinner together and watched a movie. And I'm going to go visit my dad tomorrow either before the matinee or after or during or whatever...at some point i will be there.
I really don't know...I honestly am in a kind of shock...but at the same time...I had a weird weird feeling that something like this was going to happen...The poor man has lost a friend who passed away in his sleep like 2 weeks ago at the age of 52...And his two best friends were just diagnosed with incureable cancers...And he's been really torn up about it....And he gets all worked up over everything...And my Bobeh's good friend...who was young, in his 50's just passed away in HIS sleep...And one of the men who runs the Playhouse told me the other day about a bunch of his friends who just passed away recently...It's all too weird. I thought it could just be all his stress and anxiety over everything that's happened to the people around him in the past weeks...But I have heard way too many stories about death and sickness for this to happen now.
I feel selfish for going to theshow last night even though my whole family told me to. I'm so proud of it though...And I'm so glad that my dad is proud of me for it...I hope he gets to see it...His tickets were for tomorrow...but maybe he will go next weekend...Or at the very least I can show him all my pictures. as soon as I get them.
I mean...I don't even know...I hope that by waiting until Monday it doesn't seriously damage him more...I don't even know whats going on!! We.don't.even.know.whats.going.on. =(
I got home from going out after the show on Thursday night with some people and I got into bed at like 5:00 a.m...And I of course turned my t.v. on instead of just shutting my eyes and falling asleep...And as it was nearning 6:00 a.m I thought ok, I'll shut it off in like 2 minutes...And all of a sudden I heard my dad from the bottom of the stairs say "Gaye I think I need to go to the hospital, can you take me or should I call 911?"...So I am literally now just staring at my ceiling...Heart pounding...have no clue what the hell is going on...Because I immediately heard my mom jump outta bed and say " no no I'm coming, does it still hurt lester?"...So I'm like freaking out, but not moving cause I am like in shock. So then I hear my dad walking up the stairs saying " I'm gonna ask Amy to give me a hug goodbye" So now I'm shaking...My dad comes in my room I ask him what's going on and he says while on the verge of tears : "Can I have a hug? I love you...I hope I'm ok..." So now I'm like DAD, What the fuck is going on?! and he said that he had chest pains last night and they got worse and he doesn't know what's wrong...So now I feel like my mom is taking WAY too much time taking him, so I'm like " mom jut throw on sneakers and GO!" I got my dad some asprin because I knew that that's what the doctor said to do years ago when he had his heart attack. So he took them and by that point my mom came down stairs and they left. So I go back up to my room and call Chris cause I have no idea what to do or what's going on...I woke him up of course, and I wanted him to come here but at the same time I didn't want him to come here and miss his last STC dinner thing so I said nevermind...But he said he'd come if anything major happened and I needed him...So I hung up with him and am like shaking and frantic and don't know what to do...Obviously I'm not able to sleep. So I literally CLEAN my room spot.less. no joke...Just got up and went on like a mega straightening/cleaning spree in my room, and then I did the kitchen...I mean..I just didn't know what to do...I think I feel asleep around 8:00 from just pure exhaustion...And then my mom came home to tell me that they transfered him to the Lahey in Burlington and that they might have to perform open heart surgery...So now I'm like holy crap...She leaves...I don't know why she didn't take me with her...She told me she'd call if anything happened. She didn't call me all.day. I called Scott because I had heard her call him and tell him what happened when she came home to shower and tell me where they took him...And I told him to tell her to call me when he got to the hospital afterwork...And I guess my dad told my mom to tell me to go to Winthrop because it was opening night of Company...And I had just told him the day before how Chad said that my costumes were the best they've ever had...And it was so professional looking etc..etc...And my mom said that my dad was talking to her about it yesterday and how proud he was...So he wanted me to go. So...I did...And I felt like a shit head...Because I didnt even go to the hospital...But she assured me that everything was ok forthe time being...
Whyyyy he didn't go to the hospital the moment he felt chest pains the night before is BEYOND me...Apparently they can't do anything until monday though...He's going to have an operation on Monday..I have no idea what...It has to do with his arteries...My mom thought that maybe his Stint from his last heart attack had collapsed but the doctors said that it wasn't that and they thought it was clogged arteries...which to me was the same thing as a heart attack..but apparently it isn't...So they hooked him up t tubes and things and have been keeping his arteries open...And they couldn't operate because some random emergency came through the hospital and they had to take care of that...And then I guess doctors DON'T WORK on weekends...WHAT!?! I know! I have no clue either. How the heck to doctors not work on weekends?!!? It's beyond me. But they can't do anything until Monday UNLESS something drastic happens and it is inevitable that an on-call doctor has to perform surgery...
I really don't understand it....
And my mom left early this morning to go to the hospital and had her phone off alllll day....so rather than go to the show again tonight I opted to at least be home for when she got home so that she wouldn't be alone...I would have driven to the hospital but she didn't call me all day and I figured that she would eventually...well she did...when she LEFT...Oy...I donno...So she got home a few hours ago and we had dinner together and watched a movie. And I'm going to go visit my dad tomorrow either before the matinee or after or during or whatever...at some point i will be there.
I really don't know...I honestly am in a kind of shock...but at the same time...I had a weird weird feeling that something like this was going to happen...The poor man has lost a friend who passed away in his sleep like 2 weeks ago at the age of 52...And his two best friends were just diagnosed with incureable cancers...And he's been really torn up about it....And he gets all worked up over everything...And my Bobeh's good friend...who was young, in his 50's just passed away in HIS sleep...And one of the men who runs the Playhouse told me the other day about a bunch of his friends who just passed away recently...It's all too weird. I thought it could just be all his stress and anxiety over everything that's happened to the people around him in the past weeks...But I have heard way too many stories about death and sickness for this to happen now.
I feel selfish for going to theshow last night even though my whole family told me to. I'm so proud of it though...And I'm so glad that my dad is proud of me for it...I hope he gets to see it...His tickets were for tomorrow...but maybe he will go next weekend...Or at the very least I can show him all my pictures. as soon as I get them.
I mean...I don't even know...I hope that by waiting until Monday it doesn't seriously damage him more...I don't even know whats going on!! We.don't.even.know.whats.going.on. =(