i dont understand...
So i havent updated in a really long time. And i've been meaning to because i have so much fun stuff to update about such as halloween, school stuff, NACA, and other fun things. But thats all on the backburner for todays update.
I just feel sad. I know i'm echoing mike on this one, i've never known anyone from high school who's died. And i ( Read more... )
fortunately I was lucky enough to have made so many good memories w/ chris over the years. I remember chris coming to my house in the morning and walking to the bus stop to meet amy and david...the hilarious bus rides to and from school that whole year...and the ice cream truck stops the four of us would make before heading home. Chris was always there when I needed him to be, he was the type of person that you never had to ask for anything. everytime I got my heart broken or got in a fight w/ someone he was there...he never had to say a word to you he'd just hug you. chris was such a fun person to be around. he could make you laugh till you were ready to pee your pants. one of my favorite pictures is the two of us sitting on a bean bag chair and he little pony tails all over the top of his head...I had used elastics for your braces...we both have the stupidest smiles on our faces. makes me smile while I'm crying. I remember that night Amy had mentioned...it was the first time I ever got drunk...he warned every single boy there to stay away from us or he'd personally take care of them. just like chris, he always threatened boys into staying away from me. he was always so protective.
this all really didn't hit me until michael called me to make sure that I had heard the awful news. it completely broke my heart to hear him so upset. that was by far one of the hardest phone calls I've ever gotten. mike, you and chris were like brothers to me. we went through it all together. I just cannot believe he's actually gone. I don't know what I would do if I lost you too.
when I finally got home last night and I thought that I didn't have anymore tears left to cry I went through some old pictures and boxes of notes from high school. there were so many pictures of all of us together. us at fairgrounds, nashua high, canobie lake, in front of michael's old house down the street from mine...it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I always thought it was stupid to keep things like old notes and little yellow men made out of pipe cleaners but now I am so incredibly happy that I did. to some people it would mean nothing but to me it's just like having my old friend back w/ me.
amy thank you so much...it was so good to have an old friend do that for me. I made a new picture collage of all of us and your pictures are in there...just so that I never forget some of the best friends I've ever had...it's terrible that the death of one of us had to bring that to my attention. it's what chris would have wanted. I still love you guys all so much.
chris, I love you and you have no idea how much you'll be missed. thanks for the incredible memories...xoxox always <3
-Robyn
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